Everyone gathered at the rectangle table they previously used for the meeting. All the staffs and managers had left the room. They knew that the next talk was meant to be only for Arashi members. Some AD sans were waiting at the lobby, the other - when things like this situation came up - usually ended up having their late lunch at the cafeteria nearby. Everyone understood the situation. Half an hour before the press conference, Aiba as the chosen members to become the spoke person finally called on of the reporter delegation and politely asked everyone to wait as they told the Jimunsho they needed some times to discuss something before the interview.

"They are willing to wait," explained Aiba as he came back from the front lobby at the building. 

Kazu and Ohno pouted their lips, they listened but their mind were also lingering, everyone was thinking about the shadow leader, who was still laying down in the hospital. The tense atmosphere spread in the room was felt not only by the four members but also by anyone who passed it. They would walk a bit faster as they passed by this place where all members still gathered. They all who passed considered it wasn't their right to even listen to their private conversation. The past week would perhaps be the hardest one not only the members felt but also for people around them, for all friends, colleagues, fellow entertainers, and not to mention for all the fans who kept praying for Sho's recovery.

J sat across the three other members. He leaned his back against the seat. His eyes vividly glared at the ceiling. Once in a while he would looked at his fellow members who seemed to be ready to listed to what J was about to say, but then it was also obvious they were all also feeling hazy. J also knew about it, It was almost twenty years, how could he not know. However since the accident happened to his brother and all the things J got through. He couldn't deny his own feelings. He was more than restless

"J, I know how you feel." uttered Kazu breaking the silence. He stared at J deeply as he talked.

"If you've got something, anything across your mind, please, tell us! Do't let us guess! Don't put us in this situation, we had no idea what you're thinking. We're not psychic, we can't read your mind," growled Kazu.

"Kaz... Chill will ya..." Added Aiba as he tapped his buddy's shoulder.

"we knew how you felt, we knew exactly you're sad, so are we... It's not only about you. You're luckier, gotta chance to see his condition. Look at us, We don't even know how he looked like in there, we haven't had a chance..." Tukas Kazu melanjutkan.

"Gome...." uttered J, cutting Kazu's sentences. He lowered down his gaze.

"I thought you're going to say something, what is it?" asked Ohno patiently, he glared deeply at J, like he was trying to say 'just talk, don't hesitate'.

"We're ready to listen. Remember we were always strive  together so far, we fight this together as well, kay? Let's face this together. Don't let us figure out the things we don't understand." added  Aiba half whispered.

Aiba, Even though he would look a bit baka sometimes and spontaneous, not to mention he often being bullied by everyone, somehow, he would act like the most mature of all. His natural traits made him did so many silly things without he realized. However, when he got serious, his words would meant a lot to somehow make everyone felt better when they needed somebody to cheer them all. Yup, Aiba and Sho are the eldest son in his family, it was obvious for them to have their wise aura float from them. But, in Aiba,s case, this situation only happened in an extraordinary situation. Huh? XD 

"Sho kun, he came to me..." uttered J all in sudden as he lowered his sight to the floor, slowly.

"Huh? What do you mean?" Asked Kazu as he frowned his eyebrows.

Ohno and Aiba glared at each other. They didn't ask. They were patiently waiting for J's answer, In unison, they placed both of their hands on the table in front of them and rested their chin on them, ready to listen to what J had experienced.

"Look, He came to me. Aaahh... How can I explain... I couldn't believe it myself, It's like... like he wanted to say something!" Explained J nervously. 

His sharp eyes set straight to Ohno, Aiba and Kazu as if he wanted to convinced all of them that he was telling the truth, but then he froze and stunned. He widened his eyes in disbelieve, his face went white. 

"Matsujun, are you okay?" Asked Aiba in puzzled as he saw J's face turned like a person who just saw a ghost.

Ohno went puzzled and he widened his eyes and frowned his forehead, He stared at his little brother, J's eyes started to be filled with tears.

"Matsujun...?" asked Ohno slowly.

Kazu glanced at J's eyes then he turned his head and glanced to his own back.

"J... What did you see?"

J didn't answer... He lowered his gaze.

'Sho kun... What do you want? Why do you always come to me?' Whispered J quietly. 

The figure he saw appeared right behind his three buddies. He was there, sitting nicely at the black sofa right behind Kazu. He smiled for  moment then glanced at his three brothers one by one, then he glanced at J. then he unexpectedly stood up, gave a small bowed and walked out through the back door right behind Aiba who was still sitting down. There wasn't any sound nor any single words came out from his mouth. He just walked away, just like that. The way he walked, It's definitely Sho's way of walking.

"J... Don't leave us in puzzle. Don't tell me you just saw Sho kun," guessed Kazu.

J kept lowering his eyes to the ground, his hands began trembling, then he was covering his face. He didn't say anything anymore. He couldn't. Everything he got through, it was too complicated to be true. It was indeed hard to believe.

Ohno rose from his seat, he was approaching J who could no longer hold his emotion, he sat next to his youngest brother as he touched his shoulder. Ohno's mind like went back to the old times, some years ago when they celebrated Arashi fifteenth Anniversary. J wept hard like he sobbed and sobbed, but then, that was a different case. They were all really drunk that time. Now, everybody were fully conscious. 

"Talk to us when you are ready, we will listen and we wont push you to tell us what's going on. Now you should have a bit rest, go home... The meeting is over anyway... Okay?" Said Ohno as he glared deep to his brother who now had all his face went red.

Kazu and Aiba could not say anything. All they could do, they both went speechless as they kept staring at their youngest brother who was in the verge of breaking down.

It was hard to believe what J had just told them. They wanted to believe him but somehow, they didn't expect to listen and saw such a reaction from the Concert Master. Their plan to talk about Sho's performance seemed forgotten because of whatever they thought about what J had seen. 

***
"Sho kun... I'm back..." mumbled J quietly.

J was slowly approaching Sho on his bed, whom at the moment was peacefully asleep. His face was still covered by the oxygen mask. J's eyes went to the IV lines connected to Sho's hand. There was another lines connected his chest to a heartbeat monitor next to him. The sound came from it was faintly heard clear. The sound of his heartbeat seems more stable. Actually J didn't really understand about it. Compare to his own heartbeat, Sho's was a bit slower. His eyes were shut like he was dreaming, from the see through oxygen mask, he could see a dash of smile from his lips, or at least it looked like a smile. 

J sat on the chair next to Sho's bed. He could not escape his sight. He kept looking at his brother. But then J was shocked. The other Sho kun was standing next to Sho kun who was lying down. J looked at the figure deeply. His sharp eyes examined every curve of his face and the movements of the figure who had stood before him. The feeling of fright had gone. There was anger in his heart. He felt upset because the puzzle he was experiencing was very confusing.

"I don't know what you mean to always show yourself in front of me. I'm not afraid anymore, I won't avoid it." J said softly while stammering. He did not want his voice to be heard by the medical staffs and nurses.

"What are you trying to convey Sho kun?" Asked J furiously.

The other Sho kun's figure didn't answer. He smiled, then grasped his right hand and placed it on his left chest. Like trying to show a gesture, Sho kun nodded and smiled and closed his eyes, and disappeared.

"Matsumoto san, sorry ... It's time for us to check on Sakurai's condition," the nurse's voice surprised J. He hurriedly stood up to his feet.

"Sho kun, I go home first ..." J whispered softly.

J exited the room, leaving Sho back to be alone, lying in the quiet room. His heart beat was clearly heard from the monitor beside him. The thumping sounds sounded regularly soft but the frequency gradually went up. Unexpectedly, his fingers moved, just a little ... But there was a movement. From his tightly closed eyes, his eyes also seemed to move. It seemed that Sho knew his brother was coming to visit, and that was what made him reacted.