I just wish you would've known the amount of times I looked at you like you were the sky, the stars and the sun all at once. You don't know how you're the only name in my head but also the topic I avoid with people because I get too happy, I act like a kid. I wish you could know that our friendship's worth so much in my heart, or how losing you would be too hard. I wish you'd know how I still remember how your hand feels on mine, or on my thigh. I wish you'd know how your jokes make me laugh just because I'm highly in love with you. I wish you'd know that your smile is the only thing making me go through hard days, and how you make math classes somehow kind of nice. I wish I could just talk to you alone and tell you everything that goes through my mind, but every time I feel your look on me I just lose it all. I wish you'd know that despite what happened..  I'd want to talk to you now and forever, and I just wish you'd know that having you as a friend is one of god's best blessings in my life. Please don't go.

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I wrote this literally over a month ago. Today, I can obviously say that I don't like him anymore that way; he's just one of my best friends and god knows how lucky I am for that.