To my best friend-

I like you. Of course I like you. I always did. I don't know, it feels like you've been there for forever now. You're a huge part of my world now, you know? You're just.. Always there. And that's not a complain, oh no, I'm so glad I always have you. You're simply becoming irreplaceable. I wouldn't want to do it, without your hugs, love you's, just without you. Your sense of humour, your incapability at being really mad at me and your sudden madness about everything at school. Look, I'm not easy to handle and certainly not easy to live with, but you make me feel like an actual human who matters. And that's probably the best gift anyone ever gave me. As long as I feel like I matter to you, I'm happy to be alive. You gave me a reason to close my eyes on my dark thoughts isn't it the best thing? I know you didn't know that. But does it really matter whether you know or don't? You've always told me that you were here, you comfort me when I'm not fine, so does it really matter if I tell you how bad I once felt? because I'm good, now. I'm happy, oh so happy. And yes, you're apart of it. You're my favourite even if we often end up treating each other like shit. I wouldn't want to kick anyone's butt but yours, you know that right? Look, my inside jokes with you wouldn't be half as funny with anyone else. Your laugh warms my heart and your bad jokes somehow always make me laugh. Anyway, I don't even know if you care about all these details, but I do. Oh man, I do too hard. I hope you do, too. Or else, at least, keep being you. Keep slaying the works, keep kicking butts, keep being that goddamn gorgeous human. Never quit it. No matter what people will tell you, you are the fire. You're my favourite type of person, that squishy face, dark / dumb humour and sensitivity. You are a precious human, and I don't know if I'll ever say it enough so that it enters in your mind and stay there forever. Never think otherwise, please. Not everything will go your way - but you are precious, we are your friends. And I promise to give you love forever. Blindly. Because I'm not saying I love you like I'd love a boyfriend; you're my favourite person ever and I love you, like I love the closest friends to my heart. No matter how shit I'm going to call you, or how many times I'll tell you fuck you instead of I love you too... And vice versa. You know my limits, you know when you need to get serious, and I'm so grateful I have you as a cornerstone in my life. I know shit's going to happen with you too, but you make it so easy to go through anything.