"It was only a crush, stop saying you loved him."

Only a crush? A crush? Gotta explain some things.

A crush is someone you appreciate mostly based on what they look like. You don't know them much but would like to know them more.

But what I felt what so much stronger then that. I couldn't help but smile when he was close to me or said "hi". I felt my heart beating so much faster when he smiled at me. I felt so much happiness when we were talking. I felt chills when we were separated by only a couple of inches.

And it couldn't only be a friend where I was going with him. You don't hug so tightly and so full of feelings a friend. You don't enter a little flirt game with a friend. You don't hold your friend's hand that way. You don't smile that way to your friends. You don't almost kiss a couple of times your friend. You just don't act like that with a friend.

It wasn't a crush, it wasn't like a best friend.. It was so complicated but so damn beautiful...

Was he my boyfriend? Not really. Was he a frequentation? I guess so, but in a way he was more. Was he a friend? No, so much more.