Today would have been

Your 36th birthday

You didn't even have

A name until last summer

Yet I've wondered about you

Ever since I found out

You were alive

Even for a few

Precious moments

What would you have been like

Had you lived

Would you have been my friend

My protector against childhood tormentors

My confidant when I had no one else

Would you have been the referee

To our parents fighting

Instead of me

To consider that my parents

As our parents

With another human being

Is very strange

To think

Especially 32 years onward

Would it have broken your heart

To see me ill

Would you have cheered me on

When I sang my heart out

At Radio City

Would you have gone scuba diving with me

So many unanswered questions

Life unlived

Because you went up to soon

Brother mine

We remember you

Every June 7th

Especially our mother

Who loves every inch of you

Though she never got a chance to hold you

Genichka

Genya

Eugene

Gene

So many ways to

Know a being

Who has been

A soul waiting for a vessel

To reincarnate into

Yet again

I know what I have to do

And I just ask you to send

The right one to me

And both of our purposes

Will be fulfilled

Meanwhile

Let great-grandmother Blooma

Take care of you

And watch over our mother

I know you know how

Brother mine

Sister yours

I shall forever be

Until we all meet again