I have been thinking about this, for so long. I finally found the connection to myself. Everyone always tells me that there is a time to grow up and I am trying to do that. I know the only thing that is holding me back is fear. I told my mother and my father. But, I realized I stepped over the line from young adult to adulthood. I went to another world and not my dream world, another world filled with fire and another world filled with golden gates and that told me that "you can play around if you want too, but you need to pick yourself up it's your choice."

That message showed me I am tried of playing games with people. I am growing mentally every day. Every since we moved here, I haven't connected with any of my mates back in England.

There is this chain and I broke it.

The past is the past and my future is today.