Olivia's Pov.

    Here I am again. Thinking, is it really worth it. Should i stay and hurt more or should i leave and end it all.

    No one will care. Everyone saw me as the slut that sleeps around. All of this is his fault. I lived a good life, but he had to mess it all up for me. 

     It was raining while i was standing on the bridge choosing if i should jump or not. It's was obvious that i would do it anyway. I can't come all that way for nothing.

  "God, if there is really a good reason for me to stay then give me a sign. I tried, i really did and i tried my best. But it seems like every time i try and fix something a million other breaks. So god please give me a sign if it is worth it, worth staying" I said talking to no one and looking at the sky.

    I looked at the sky as it rained harder. I stepped forward slowly on the edge of the bridge and looked down. It was high, so high that when i looked down i felt dizzy.

    That's it Olivia. Just do it, no one will care. I stood ready to jump but i was pulled by two strong arms. I was pulled away from a bridge into a tight hug, i couldn't move, i couldn't even see who it is .

   "Don't you ever do that again" a sweet voice said while cracking. I just stood there scared in disbelief. Thinking of how familiar that voice sounds. And how- ohh god . I suddenly realized who it was and i pulled away fast that he didn't proses what was happening as i fell slowly off the bridge.

    You know how slowly people die or fall in Indian movies. That's how it felt falling off the bridge. I felt my breath hitch as i fall, and the last face i saw was my moms. I'll never forget how beautiful she looked that day.

     The day where I remember actually being happy. I didn't fake it when we were at the picnic that day. I remember how beautiful my mom looked in that sundress, with her rosy pink cheeks and her dirty blond hair.  I'll always remember how blue her eyes looked next to the lake that day and i'll always love how I took over her blue eyes. 

    So, this is..... how it is going to end. I didn't jump but fell anyway, was that the sign that i should stay. or was it that i wasn't meant to be here i was supposed to jump anyway. Well life doesn't go as planned and seems to me that death doesn't either

   Suddenly it all went black and i can't see anything. I think that's it. I am finally died. my biggest wish has finally come true. I hope that at least in this life, shit sorry death, I'll be happy and hopefully I'll see  my mom. Gosh i miss her so much

I am finally free from the pain.

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~H.S