You would think I'd learn my lesson by now that I shouldn't approach Draven. Yet, here I am still trying to talk to this fool. Tomorrow my bar opens back up again. I've tried to talk to Draven every time I have seen him. Each time wasn't successful and I'm hoping this time it will be.

My children wanted a milkshake so here I am at the same damn diner. Draven is sitting at the same damn table as last time. He has some girl with him and some members as well.

Maybe she's an ol' lady or a girlfriend?

As soon as he sees me, he looks annoyed. He gets up and tries to leave again. I make it to the side entrance before he does. He stops immediately and turns on his heels. My dad is now standing at the front door. Draven goes for the back door behind the counter. I chase after him. I know I'm dramatic but I want him to truly get to know his kids. Well, more like I want him to know he can if he wants too. No pressure. Yet, here I am chasing after him like I'm a lunatic. Before I can get behind the counter I hear Kaiser's voice.

"Just hear what she has to say. I don't agree with what she's done but at least hear her out."

"Why? She's lied to me." Draven answers me.

"Don't let what's she's done stop you from knowing them." Dawson responds.

"They're great kids Draven. You missed out on so much. Don't miss out on any more of their lives." Dylan speaks up. I round the counter and see my brothers have blocked the back door. They see me and all three nod their heads in my direction.

"If I move from this door so you two can talk. You won't run will you, Draven?" Kaiser asks. All I hear is Draven grumble like our kids. It almost makes me want to laugh...

Almost.

The boys leave from behind the counter. Well Kaiser walks out the back door. My guess he's blocking the back exit still. He must not trust Draven's grumbling words. Who can blame him? Draven's backs turned towards me still.

"You can hate me all you want. I don't care. I do care about our children. I'm not forcing you but I would love for you to get to know them. Maybe one day you'll let me explain my reasons. Until than I'll wait. I just would love for you to get a chance to know them." I call out. I turn on my heels and grab my children's milkshakes off the counter and sprint out the door. I don't give him a second glance. I just keep going for my truck. Dawson and Dylan are yelling for me to stop but my feet keep pushing me forwards. When I make it to my truck; I hear my dad but I don't even stop. I put their milkshakes in the cup holders and before I could blink; I feel a hand on my arm as I am pulled from my car door. I am turned around in a flash. I come face to face with eyes that remind me of the forest. I could stare at them all day. But, not these eyes. These eyes show hurt, betrayal, and deception. His eyes remind me of a sunny forest but his emotions in his eyes aren't the emotions he used to hold back then.

"What the hell Kenz? How can you just say that and just leave? You didn't even give me a chance to speak." Draven asks. I take a step back to my door's opening. I climb in my seat but before I close my door.

"Like how you wouldn't give me a chance to speak?." My voice has so much hurt laced with every word.
I close my door and wipe my eyes. I back out of my parking spot with a stunned Draven still standing like a statue. I head towards my house. Mom wanted some meme time so I let her play with the kids while I took off for their milkshakes. Dad must have called mom because she is out of the house waiting for me on the porch with the saddest look in her eyes. I walk up onto my porch and I let a single tear fall as my mom wraps her arms around me.

"It's okay baby. I got you." Mom whispers in my ear. "He'll come around." She softly says.

"It is all my fault mom." I say with small tears falling from my eyes. I wipe my tears and try to look happy. I have to look happy for my children. I don't want them to think I ever regret them or that I'm upset because of them. So, I smile daily to show them I'm okay even when I am most definitely not. I walk in the door and announce that I am home.

"I got your milkshakes!" I call out.
I hear little feet pattering and I couldn't help but chuckle.

"Mummy!! We missed you." Eve says

"You were gone for like a undred years mum." Blade whines.

"Is that so little man?" I chuckle out my question.

"No, it was like a zillion years. What took so long mommy?" Blade whines.

"A zillion years?" I ask with a smile.

"Yes! A zillion years!" He grumbles while taking his milkshake.

A zillion is his way of saying a billion. He hasn't formed all the B's correctly for the most part. I watch as they scurry back into the kitchen where they had originally came from. This causes me to let out a heartly chuckle. When I want to give up, I look at my children. I look into their eyes, I knew I could never give up. I live for these two.