The bar was closed for the past month because of Grandpa's health. So, the week I finally came back; I decided she needed to be opened again. Everleigh and Blade was outside in the back playing with their Unc Daw as Blade calls Dawson. Walking into the bar that I have missed for nearly 6 years makes memories comes crashing into my head. I remember when coming home from school and showing Grandpa my test that said 100. He picked me up in front of the bar and placed me on top of it. He was twirling me around and dancing with my small self. When I look up at the old jukebox, I remember when he would give me a quarter and tell me to go pick out a song. I always picked the same song every damn time. And every time grandpa would twirl me around this bar that was about to open for the day. That song I played every time was 'Born To Be Wild.' Grandpa sheltered me anytime a fight broke out around me. When I was just in high school, this is the place I rode my Harley to and Grandpa would be outside waiting on his. We would ride down the road side by side. This happened all through high school every single day. That is until I left. I heard the door open and say Kaiser coming through the door.

"Remember when you punched the shit out of Raider at that table. You was only 4'11 which you still are. And was a freshmen." Kaiser says remembering old memories like I was.

"Yeah, he said I cheated and I'm sorry. So I swung for the damn fences." I finished.

"Dad and Grandpa threw him out those door right on his face." Kaiser recalls.

"Dad told him never to show his face around here again." I respond back.

"Grandpa yelled at him saying I quote 'My shotgun's waiting to be used again. I ain't afraid to put some lead in your body.' I swear I never seen grandpa that angry in my life." Kaiser recalls.

"Grandpa would have shot him too." Kaiser adds.

"Dad pulled out a frozen bag of peas and placed it on my hand." I say.

"I thought mom was going to have a heart attack when you punched his jaw." Kaiser laughs out.

Our reminiscing quickly ended when we heard the sounds of Harleys heading towards the bar. Opening the door and walking out of it. We were in awe with the sight in front of us. Dawson and Dylan each with one of my kids on their Harleys. If I was some city girl I would have went out there raising hell. But I'm a small town girl who grew up on that Harley that Dawson is on. I thought I made the right decision to never come back here; but in reality I think I truly made the worst mistake. My kids need their family and their family needed my kids.

"Mum did you see that?" Everleigh squeals out.

"I did honey! Did you have fun with Uncle Dill?" I ask her.

She nods her head yes and Dylan picks her up and starts to twirl my girl around. Like how dad done me all those years ago. I wish her father could do that with her. Unfortunately, that will probably never happen. That is all my fault. I wish I had the courage to tell him. To tell him about them. About his.... Our children.

"Unc Daw said when I get older this will be my bike mummy!" Blade says.

"Is that so?" I ask my little boy.

He nods his head yes nonstop. So quickly I swear his head was going to fling off his shoulders and neck.

"Did you know that bike was my dad's. It originally was Grandpa's. Dad gave Dawson that bike. Which means." I started to say.

"I'm more special." Blade says quickly.

I never realized dad and mom came from the side of the bar to hear the conversation.

"Hey, I'm special too!" Everleigh says.

"No, I am cause I get papaw's bike." He snaps back at his sister. He sticks his tongue out at her.

"Hey Everleigh! You know when you get older. You'll have mine?" My mom calls out to her.

My mom's other bike has custom paint on it. It is actually painted Everleigh's favorite color black and lilac.

"Ha! I get meme's bike." Everleigh yells out and sticks her tongue back out at Blade.

Everleigh runs into my mom's arms. I watch as everyone waltzed into the damn bar. Why is everyone here? Before I could even ask dad had already answered my unasked question.

"Extra pairs of hands will help get this place set up in two weeks."

"I gotta go. He called church. Be good for your mom or I'll tickle the liquids out of you two." Kaiser threatens his niece and nephew.

I nod my head. Thankful for my family. Kaiser left because Draven has called church, so I'll be seeing my older brother in like the next half a damn day. I watched as my older brother hauls ass, slinging gravel in every direction. What I thought would be half a day turned into I hadn't seen Kaiser in 3 days. Goddamn 3 days! I will be the opening of the bar in a week almost. And Kaiser just came back from club business. Everleigh and Blade are in the yard playing with my family. Kai came running through the back door like an insurance salesman is on his ass.

"He knows!" Kaiser whispers out of breath.

Did he just run here? Why are you panting for bro?

"What?" I ask puzzled but that question got answered and it wasn't by Kaiser.

I thought I could hide the truth. I thought he would never find out. But, hey! When you're in a small town, people talk. And so they did. My son is a spitting image of their father. So, when he came barging through my bar and walking out the back door towards my house. I couldn't hide it anymore. Our children were out in the yard playing for fuck's sake.

"Is it true?" He growls out.

"Is what true?" I ask.

"They're mine aren't they?" He snaps back

"I don't know what you're talking about." I try to deny it.

"He fucking looks like me McKenzie!" He yells.

"I..." I had no words.

Tears began to fall from my eyes like the raining falling out the sky. There's no point in lying and trying to hide it anymore.

"Were you ever going to tell me?"

"No."

"You're such a fucking hypocrite Mac. You know this right?" He yelled and stormed off towards his Harley FXDR 114. He never looked back. And I never blamed him. How could I?

I destroyed the man I loved since we were children once again. I slumped to the ground in defeat. Tears falling freely down my face. I felt little hands wipe my tears on my stained cheeks.

"It's okay mummy. I caught your raindrops." Blade says.

My whole family had watched what had gone down. They watch Draven haul ass like I was the devil, who was on his ass. They all watched as the little piece I had of a heart, shattered completely at the sight of the person that I was still in love with his backside walking away from me.

"It is okay. I'll talk to him sis." Kaiser says while squeezing my shoulder.

Kaiser picks up Blade and walks back to the porch. My dad opens his arm up while my mom has tears falling from her eyes. I leap of the ground and my 23-year-old self launched into my dad's arms. He is my protector. He fights my demons away. Even now, he hasn't stopped trying to protect me. I honestly am grateful to have him as my father.

"I promise you he will come around. He can't stay mad forever baby girl." Dad whispers in my ear.

"If he tries to I'll go from family guy to Bear in all half a second. No one messes with my daughter." He says.

He kisses my cheek and wipes all my fallen tears away. I start to walk towards my porch, when I get to the bottom step I turn to my dad.

"I love you dad.... Always and forever!"

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