I watched as my body is sucked into Hell. I watch as my life just flashed before my eyes. I watch who I swear I hated but honestly I don't. I still love this idiota. Kiss the club whore. Well, I walked down the hall and they were already kissing.

Well he sure moves on quickly. I gasp like the air is being knocked out of my lungs. Both their heads turn towards me, Kaiser has a guilty look in his eyes while she has a sinister smirk on her lips. She mouths 'he's mine now bitch.' Before Kaiser could open his mouth, I turn on my heels and run back down the hall. I run out the door as Kaiser is yelling for me. I run past everyone I love with my whole heart. I jump onto my bike and blast off. I ride for what feels like hours until I make it to the beach house the club owns.

Why bother?

I sit in the sand with a beer in my hand. I don't know how long I've been sitting here but I know I've drank so much that I'm numb.

Extremely numb.

I've became so depressed lately that I don't want to even live.

How do you pretend you're fine when you're dead inside? I can't do my fake smiles anymore. I can't do my fake happiness anymore. I haven't smiled a genuine smile in months. I haven't been happy in months. How do I live when I'm empty and dead inside?

Simple answer, I can't.

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"What the fuck?" I yell at Candice aka Candi.

"I mean... We have a connection Kaiser. Don't fight it." She says.

"Get the fuck away from me." I snap at her. I run after Tinsley screaming her name. She doesn't even stop. Who would blame her? I wouldn't?

She doesn't even stop when everyone else is yelling for her. She just ran straight past everyone and left on her bike like she was running from hell. Candi walks out the door towards me.

"Stay the fuck away from me!" I yell at her. Her eyes get the size of saucers.

"What happened?" Mac asks.

"She fucking yanked me in the hall and kissed me. She knew Tins was at the other end. I didn't want to kiss that bitch. Get her away from me and out of my sight." I yell. The veins in my neck are sticking out. My face is red as a tomato. Not from being embarrassed but from being so pissed off. Bitch was right at the bathroom door. She set me up. Set me up bigger than shit.

Mom pulls Candi by her hair and yanks her out the gates and off the property. I watch as my mom decks this girl in the mouth and closes the gates behind her.

"Stay the fuck out!" Mom yells. We all look at mom like she is an alien.

"What? I walked the trash out. I never liked that bitch anyways." Mom says while shrugging her shoulders. Tinsley isn't answering anyone's calls. She keep ignoring them every time.

We all sit in the main room trying to think of where she could be. She took off yesterday and we haven't found her nor have we spoke to her. Ink and Gears have taken off to the beach house hours ago. They still aren't back. A phone rings and it breaks us all out of our trances.

"Hello?" Mac says.

"Is this McKenzie Archer?"

"And who might you be?" Mac questions. She places the phone on speaker so we could hear.

"This is Dr. Rollins at Dansbury Hospital. Your listed as an emergency contact...."

"For who?" Mac asks. Fear laced in her voice.

"Uh. Monroe Tinsley Walland." The color in my face drained.

"Is she okay?" Mac asks in a panic. My heartbeat quickens as the line is silent.

"No. She's in critical condition. I need you to sign some forms for more treatment on her. Can you come to the hospital?"

"Yes! I'll be there soon." Mac hurries and hangs up the phone. Before anyone could say a word I anm already out the door running to my bike. As I hit the road everyone is now running out behind me. I speed towards the hospital that's down the road from our beach house.

I make it there in an hour and half. The beach house is a little over two hours away from our clubhouse. The hospital is just five blocks down from the beach house. I run through the doors of the hospital. My hairs a shoveled mess and my eyes are blood shot.

"Where is she?" I say in between breaths. The lady at the front hasn't even answer me yet before Mac comes crashing into the desk.

"Where's Tinsley Walland?" Mac wheezes out.

"Room 7. However, only a couple at a time can see her." The lady responds.

"My family owns this hospital. We'll all go in if we damn please." Draven snaps out. I do not care who was going in at what time. I just know my legs moved on their own to find her. When I open her door and I fall to my knees. I hear Mac gasp from behind me. I slump against the wall and cry as everyone walks into her room. Moments later her doctor comes in.

"What happened?" Mac asks her.

"It looks to be suicide. Well she attempted it." Her doctor answers.

"How!?" Mac cries as she's wanting an explanation.

"Looks to be she used glass and slit her wrists. They were deep but that's not what done the most damage." Her doctor says.

"What was?" I ask from the wall. My voice is cracked and raspy.

"Looks like she took a plunge from a second story window. A couple found her face down in the sand. The second story window was open and blood was found at the window. Police are at the house as we speak." The doctor answers.

"Will she be?" Dawson attempts to asks.

"We had to give her transfusions. Her swelling in her brain isn't bad. However, mixing alcohol with a handful of anti depressants and pain killers has damaged some of her organs. We had to pump her stomach contents out. Hopefully she'll wake up in the next few days." She says.

I stayed with her that night, the following night, and every night after. I've tried to talk to her. I've told her how I felt. I just need her to wake up so I can tell her.

I watch as her eyes slowly open on day seven. She spots me and has tears in her eyes.

"I know I'm not who you want to see when you wake up. But I needed to explain. I didn't kiss her... She kissed me... I'm so sorry Tins. So damn sorry...." I don't get to finish because I am stopped by her words that crushed my heart and soul.

"Get out." She rasps.

"Please let me explain." I beg.

"Please go Kaiser. Please." She chokes out. I walk out the door not giving her a second glance. I stop the nurse and tell her she is awake. I walk out the hospital passing all my family in the process.

I haven't left my room for almost a week. Today Tinsley will be back and I'm staying out of her sight. Our rooms are across from each other; so it'll be hard to avoid her. But I will try my best just for her.

Always for her.

When she finally makes it home I don't greet her. I stay put where I am, in my room. I barely adventure out. If I do, I get the clear from one of the twins. I've stayed out of her sight just so she didn't have to hurt by seeing me. I have decided today I was going to pack a bag and go to the house I rarely use. The place I bought years ago before my heart was stomped on. The place I fixed up. The place I haven't been to in quite some time. I open my door and Tinsley is walking out of her's. Her eyes get huge and when she glances down at my bag; they get even bigger.

"Kai." She says my name in a whisper.

"It's okay Tins. I'm leaving so you don't have to see my face. I understand." I tell her. I walk off and out the club doors without looking back.

"Kai? Where are you going?" Mac calls out to me. I don't stop to talk; I head for my truck.

"To my house." With that I left.

I wasn't even in my house for a damn hour before there was a knock on my door. When I open it I come face to face with a mop of teal hair. Before I could even utter a word she launches herself onto my body. She wraps her legs around my waist and has her head in my shoulder.

"Tins?" Before I could finish speaking her lips smashed against mine. No words were needed between us.

Because we both knew exactly how each other felt. I close my front door and carry her to my bedroom. She pulls her lips from mine and lays her head back on my shoulder. I lay down with a koala clinging to me. What felt like hours was only minutes before she was fast asleep.

How the hell did she even know where my house was?

How did she even know where to find me?

Mac!

Soon after, I drift off to sleep with her still clinging to me.