Khushi's POV

It has been two years since I left that mansion. 2 years since my breakdown. 2 years since I stood up for myself. I thought it would be hard to move on. I thought no one would support me but I found a lot of support. Amma and bauji, who I thought would never support me, stood by me against the Raizadas who wanted me back and they didn't even care that they were jiji's in-laws. Nanheji and Lavanyaji held onto me the moment I stepped outside the Raizada mansion. I have to meet them at least once a fortnight or they get mad. I check the watch and smile seeing the time. They are gonna come anytime and as if on cue I felt two people hugging me. I immediately hug both the people back. Can anyone guess who?

Me (smiling) - Lavanyaji...Nanheji..

Both of them let go of the hug and smile widely at me.

Lavanyaji (smiling) - chamkili, you will never believe but this monkey FINALLY has the guts to propose to me...

I laugh at the comment and immediately congratulate them while Nanheji looks at Lavayaji with an annoyed expression.

Nanheji (annoyed) - have some shame... I am your fiance now... don't call me a monkey.. You witch.

Soon they start quarrelling over nicknames and I start to laugh. They are nearly 30 and are fighting like kids. I laugh seeing the arguments getting even funnier. I suddenly see a shadow watching me from far and smiling. I know exactly who it is, but am I giving him attention? No? I have seen him ever since I left my so-called house. He isn't giving me divorce, however, he is giving me the space I require. He is watching my every move but from far... I know that he has a lot of regret from his past, but I don't know if I should forgive him. Does he even deserve it at this point?

As I am thinking all this, a small child comes running to me, with a flower, saying 'sorry' and even a message. How many flowers has it been? Every day, a new flower and a new letter with a sorry message. I look at the paper which says, 'I know my sorry may not mean a lot to you at this moment. I know I have made a lot of mistakes in the past and I am not going to blame anyone, but myself for these mistakes. I know, asking you for another chance is being selfish and therefore, I will wait. I will wait until you can trust me. Until tomorrow, have a good and safe day Khushi. I love you. I smile at the child and put the letter in my purse.

Lavanyaji (annoyed) - another letter, chamkili, why are you even bothering with him?

Me (upset) - Lavanyaji, I am living my life. I have a supporting family, am successful in my business and even have good friends, however, I feel something is missing in my life and that's Arnavji. To be honest, I am hurt and I don't regret leaving him nor do I regret asking him for divorce, however, one mistake I did was fall in love with him. As you both are aware, falling in love isn't a crime but it makes a person weak. The person who you fall for could either be your strength or your weakness and depending on the situation, Arnavji is both for me. I have lived without him for two years and I can continue to do so... but my heart... it's yearning more and more for him. During my tough times, he has been there for me. He stood against his grandmother for me...

Nanheji (annoyed) - Khushiji, we know that he has done much for you but what about you? You rescued him from that Shyam... you took all the insults from your family and his family for your first marriage, while he... he stood there and let you take them... he called you his biggest mistake in life... he even ignored you for an outsider. Are all these reasons not enough?

Me (upset) - Yes, Nanheji they are enough reasons, and that's exactly why I am still avoiding him. My brain doesn't want to forgive him, because his sorries are meaningless but my heart... it's dying to be with him. It's dying to get a glimpse of him. The sorry notes he sends every day, not once has he forgotten about it. At first, I used to think like you guys, that he isn't worth it and I used to throw those notes in the bin but they never stopped coming. A new note, with a new apology and asking for a chance of redemption. I am not going to lie to you guys but I am melting... slowly. He is giving me the space I want and not forcing me to talk to him, which I never expected him to do. Even when we were arguing 2 years ago... he didn't physically hurt me, like I thought he would. He hasn't given up on me in these 2 years. He has changed and I could see it, both by his behaviour and the efforts, however, I am unsure as to how long this change will last for.

Lavanyaji - so tell me, have you talked to anyone in RM?

Me (smiling) - No, I haven't met anyone besides Jiji and jijaji and I am planning to not meet anyone. Jiji is 6 months pregnant, and I made a bet with Jiji that it will be a girl and both jijaji and I agree that it should be, however, Jiji thinks it will be a boy. I can't wait to know if I will get a niece or nephew. You know, I don't have any problems with gender, in fact I don't mind if it's a boy.. But a little version of Jiji would be sooo cute. Now coming to the next member of the family, From what I have heard, di has stopped being useless at home and has finally started working. She works at a small fashion house, as a fashion designer.

Nanheji (curious) - wait, why does di want to work there? And not at AR?

Lavanyaji (annoyed) - You are her brother, how don't you know?

Nanheji (annoyed) - how many times do I have to tell you? I left RM, the moment Khushiji left.. I am not in contact with ANYONE. Not even di.

Me (smiling) - Well, di wants to create her own name... sounds familiar? She wants to be like him... now, naniji, mamiji and mamaji. Well Mamaji is the same as before, but now he talks back to mamiji if she hurts anyone intentionally or unintentionally. He had actually retired from AR, and goes on privileges with naniji every couple months. Mamiji, she has taken a u-turn in life. Everytime, I talk to jiji, all I hear is praise for mamiji. Mamiji pampers jiji so much and not just because she is pregnant but even before then, she has started treating jiji as her daughter. She wears less makeup and you know, she doesn't look like a clown anymore. She is slowly learning English from jiji and that's why she doesn't sound as bad as before. As for naniji, she is more sick and has to have bed rest but now she has finally realised the values of her daughter-in-laws... and would also ask mamiji to cook sometimes, instead of always ordering jiji. The good news is, though, Jiji isn't the only one doing household activities, di and jiji work together to clean and cook, while mamiji depending on her mood, either does the cleaning or cooking.

Lavanyaji (curious) - what happened to Sheetal?Aarav? ASR?

Nanheji (jealous) - you never cared about Nannav before... why are you interested all of a sudden?

Lavanyaji just glares at Nanheji and he immediately gulps and looks at me, while I try to hold my chuckle.

Me (smiling) - Sheetal and Aarav... well, after I left, they were exposed by Aman and Sheetal was put behind bars, while di adopted Aarav. According to what I heard, di does everything for Aarav herself, including paying his fees by her own money. She has stopped relying on Arnavji for money and has even stopped asking people to cook for him... she does it herself. (upset) As for Arnavji... from what I heard... nothing is the same for him.. He talks to all his family members, however, he is distant and is living like a zombie. Doesn't laugh... or smile, isn't even taking his medicines on time. He has fainted numerous times due to that issue, however, he still does it. He starts his day way early in the morning, I don't even know what time he wakes up but jiji said she has seen him awake at 3am... and sometimes 4am. He has his breakfast and goes somewhere, he only reaches ASR at like evening and stays there for like a couple of hours before disappearing and coming home at dinner time. No one knows where he goes, they have asked him but he doesn't reply.

I hide the fact from Nanheji and Lavanyaji that I know exactly where he goes. He comes to see me during those times. I haven't seen him in 2 years but I have never once not felt his presence. He is always around me... but never shows me his face.

Nanheji is about to comment on something when a loud noise grabs our attention. I look towards the source of the noise, and I am extremely shocked to see it's at the place where I last saw the shadow of Arnavji. I rush towards the scene, followed by Nanheji and Lavanyaji and I push all the people to see what happened. No! NOOO! This can't be happening! Please tell me I am dreaming. There I see him, in a pool of blood... in the middle of the road. I immediately rush towards him, and upon reaching there, I immediately put his head on my lap and start to tap his face lightly.

Me (pleading) - wake up...

My tears continually drop, while his eyes are barely open. Soon, a person comes towards us and starts questioning us.

Person (confused) - are you his wife? Or girlfriend? Actually, he was coming towards that cafe you came from with a bunch of flowers when a speeding car hit him. We have already called the ambulance and they said to make sure he stays conscious.

I immediately start to murmur sweet things to him while praying to DM to keep him alive. No matter how much I am annoyed by him, I can never wish him to die. Finally, after god knows how long, the ambulance comes and takes him to the hospital and immediately after, Nanheji and Lavanyaji take me to the hospital. I start crying more and more, as we are getting closer to the hospital. If anything happens to him... what will happen to me? Thinking all this, I wait outside the operation theatre, crying while Lavanyaji holds onto me. Please DM, keep him safe.

No one's POV

Soon the Raizadas start rushing in. The first person to come towards Khushi is Anjali who is wearing a white t-shirt with black jeans, followed by Payal with her swollen 6 months belly, while holding onto Akash who looks the same as before.

Everyone waits patiently for the doctor to come out and give them the good news they are hoping for. Each of them wishing, that nothing happens to Arnav. After two hours, that felt like eternity, the doctor comes out and everyone starts questioning him. He looks at everyone and after taking off his mask, he says the heartbreaking truth, 'I am sorry but he is no more.'

Everyone stands there shocked, not knowing what to say. First one to come out, is Akash, who holds onto the collar of the doctor and starts screaming for him to admit it is a lie. Eventually, Anjali and Payal have to forcefully hold him back. While all this is happening, Khushi is just standing there numb, not reacting to anything. Lavanya who notices this, rushes up to her and starts shaking her, so she reacts but to her bad luck, Khushi doesn't react and just falls on the floor like a lifeless doll. Everyone surrounds her, and the doctors immediately rush to her, however, they conclude another heartbreaking truth, 'she is no more.'

Khushi's POV

I smile as I finally see my Arnavji in front of him. He is alive, I knew it... The doctors lied to me. I rush towards him and hug him, while he emotionally hugs me back.

Arnavji (upset) - I am sorry Khushi... I am really sorry, I blame no one but myself for this situation. I just want to explain to you Khushi, as to why I couldn't come early when you asked me to. I had left my work early, to meet you and take you out, however, I met some old classmates of mine, who I had not met for a really long time and I decided to catch up with them. For some reason, Sheetal also came there and I didn't know when time passed by. I tried calling you but my phone ... I lost it. When I came home, I was so tired, that I just ignored you and went to sleep. I was going to apologise to you, about my rude behaviour the next day, but then I saw the DNA reports and I got mad. My anger really took over me, however, in a few days I calmed down, as I realised your point of view and I was going to apologise but I decided to surprise you with a gift instead of just a simple sorry.... I was going to surprise you on the day you left the home. I had no idea that my ignorance had such a huge impact on you. What am I saying? Of course, it hurt you... if I can be hurt when you ignore me for the family, then how can you not be hurt? I am really sorry for the ignorance Khushi... and I am also sorry for not realising the effect Sheetal and my proximity had on you. I am even more extremely sorry for doubting you... you always trusted me in every situation, and in return I doubted you. I am extremely sorry. I also want to let you know one more thing. After realising my mistake, I decided to purposely ignore you, so I can hide the surprise... and that was my biggest mistake. Despite being a Harvard student, I didn't realise the effect that had on you nor did I realise how my family were torturing you. I am really really sorry, Khushi. I really am. I never wanted you to feel like a nobody in front of Sheetal. Sheetal is, was and will be a nobody compared to you. She can never be the person who I would fall for. I fell for you because of your simplicity, your smartness, your innocent mind and most of all, your selflessness. I can never find another you... I can never find someone like you. There can never be anyone... because there is only one Khushi... and that Khushi is in front of me.

I start to cry, why is he telling me this now? Why didn't he tell me this 2 years ago? Why now? And as if he could read my mind, he answers my question.

Arnavji (upset) - I know, Khushi you must be wondering why am I telling you this now? Why after 2 years? I was going to confess to you and explain my situation to you, the moment you left... but I saw how happy you were. No, don't get me wrong, I wasn't jealous or angry seeing you happy but I was disappointed in myself. I had promised you to make you happy, I had promised to care for you and I had promised to be there during your worst moments, however, I left you. I LEFT YOU, during those times. I was the worst husband ever and seeing you smiling and laughing after being separated from me, made me realise that even more. I was supposed to make you happy... I was supposed to be the reason for your smile... however, I became sorrow... the reason for your sadness. I decided that instead of constantly showing my face and making you sad... I will watch you from far.... I Will apologise with letters and that way, you won't keep getting sad and upset seeing me... I even promised myself that, unless I see some sort of happiness on your face, hearing my name... or reading my name, I will show up. I couldn't stop myself today Khushi. There are two reasons, first is that the classes of anger management that I have been taking have finally finished. (I look at him shocked). Yes, Khushi... I really needed to control my anger as I have realised that it has done nothing but destroyed our relationship and boosted my ego. One more thing I realised, is that in my anger I say a lot of things that I don't really mean to say... but I only realise after the damage is done. I really really hate that... if I controlled my anger... then, we wouldn't be in this situation. Before, I will explain the second news... I also want to apologise for my jealousy...I am really sorry, Khushi that, in my jealousy I showed a lack of trust in you. If I could be jealous just seeing you, with NK... despite knowing you guys are just friends, how would you have felt seeing me with my ex... I am really sorry for bringing a third person in our relationship and for showing a lack of trust in you.. I will now explain the second reason, I just got news from some people that our dream house has been built. Yes, Khushi... that was my surprise. Remember, I asked you all about what your dream house looked like (this wasn't in the serial, but this was after the second marriage) and you told me all your points... Well, I decided why not use your idea and my idea to create the house. I actually had it be made from scratch and it took them two years to finally build it. I was going to come to you and apologise to you and explain from my POV, but... in my excitement I didn't see the car... and..

Suddenly, he started crying and started murmuring sorries to me. I have seen him have redemption and I have seen how guilty he is. He never cries in front of people, and being weak is one thing he hates but he is doing it... doing it now in front of me. He even decided to fight his weakness... and took anger management classes. He isn't blaming me, or anyone this time... he is blaming himself.

Arnavji (upset) -I am really really sorry Khushi. All this happened due to me...

Me (upset) - I will forgive you Arnavji... but this is the last time.

Arnavji (upset) - The next time, I hurt you. I will forever leave you. I won't ever show you my face.

I look at him with tears, and I slowly whisper, 'pls don't leave me.' He hugs me as both of us start to fly away from our bodies.

Note: Yes, both of them died and have become souls. 

Hope you guys, have liked the story. It is the longest chapter so far. I am so sorry, I gave them such a tragic ending, but they are together even after their death. Thank you so much for reading, do vote and comment. Also, make sure to stay safe guys.

Not edited, so ignore the grammatical errors.