Phil was lying on his bed, staring up at his boring ceiling when he heard a knock. It wasn't often that he got visitors so it was unusual for someone to be at his door. He stood up, bringing a hand through his hair so that he looked slightly more presentable than he did seconds ago.

He wandered towards his front door and pulled down the handle..

He saw someone he never expected to see..

Dan.

His eyes were rimmed with red and his face was pale. Overall, it looked like he had been crying.

"Dan!" Phil exclaimed, stepping back in surprise.

"Phil, listen to me. I'm so sorry." Dan said, his eyes wide with a mix of sadness and anxiety. "Can I come in?" Phil nodded before guiding Dan into the living room. "I'm sorry I didn't message you."

"I was worried sick, Dan, you know that? I thought you had committed suicide and I would never get to read a message from you again. You  could have at least messaged me to let me know you were okay."

"I tried."

"You tried to what?"

"I tried to commit suicide." Silence lapped into the room, both of the men not knowing what to say. Until Phil stood up and sighed loudly.

"Why would you do that? I care about you and you know that. You know how much your death would crush me. You're my best friend."

"I'm sorry. It was too much though, it was all too much."

"What was too much? You never told me what made you so upset."

"Can I have a cup of tea?"

"Dan, you're going to need to tell me sometime. You might as well tell me now."

"Tea helps calm me down."  (Same.)

"Fine then but, as soon as this tea is made, you are telling me everything."

"I know." Dan followed Phil into the kitchen and watched closely as Phil grabbed two mugs.

"How do you like your tea?"

"One sugar and milk."

"Okay."  The only noise in the room was the whistle of the kettle and both men could feel the awkwardness. They had nothing to say to each other yet both were dreading what Dan had to say. "Here you go." Phil mumbled as he handed Dan his mug. Dan noticed that it was Hello Kitty shaped and he couldn't help but think it was an adorable thing for a 22 year old man to own. "Now talk to me."

"No one ever liked me at school.. I was always the loser and the loner. I had friends but they would never really cared about me. I think I was just there, in their shadows. I could never tell them my secrets and they never told me theirs. I have a feeling I was nothing but invisible to them. It made me sad and, last year, when I left school.. I thought my sadness would go away. I found your videos a while ago and I really liked them. They were my escape. If I was ever upset, I would just watch one of your videos and they would make me laugh and smile. You made me happy, Phil.

So, one day, I messaged you. You responded and that was the best day of my life. Then we became friends. You seemed to actually like me and that made me ecstatic. I actually believed you were the cure to my depression. Until I realised that I liked you. Not in a friend way. I didn't know what to do. My sadness came back.. I couldn't ignore the feelings and I was afraid that you would leave if you ever found out.  But I told you, didn't I? You said you liked me back but we couldn't be  together. If anything, that made me feel kind of worse.

I convinced myself that you were only talking to me because you pitied me and that made me feel horrible. Things were horrible again. I  absolutely hate myself, Phil. I tried to... I tried to kill myself. I planned the time and everything. You found out but that didn't stop me. I.. I.." Dan was beginning to cry. He tried to hold it back so he didn't embarrass himself by crying but he failed. He was soon sobbing so much that it was hard to speak. Phil noticed and edged forward slightly so he could put a gentle hand on Dan's shoulder.

"You don't have to carry on," Phil mumbled. "I shouldn't have made you tell me."

"I took pills. A lot of them." Dan carried on, ignoring Phil. "My brother found me and he called an ambulance. I was in hospital, that was why I couldn't message you for so long. I almost died, Phil. I regret my decision now because I know how much I hurt you and my family. I really am sorry."

"Dan, I know you're sorry. I'm sorry too."

"Are we still friends?" Dan looked at Phil with eyes filled with tears. Phil couldn't look into Dan's eyes because he knew that one glance would  make him cry too. He needed to be strong. For Dan.

"Of course we are, Dan. Why wouldn't we be?"

"I hurt you."

"It  doesn't matter. It's over now." Phil wrapped his arms around Dan who was shaking (due to the quiet sobs he was letting out). "It's over. You're going to be okay."

"I'm not going to be okay."

"You have me now. I'll always be there."

"Promise?"

"Promise... Can you stay overnight?"

"Yeah. Except my parents want me to tell them where I am and everything so they know I am okay."

"That's fine by me."

This isn't edited because 1. I'm tired (I got literally no sleep last night...) and 2. I'm going on holiday so I've had a hectic morning XD