"If anyone asks me again if I was okay, I'll punch them." I spoke out through gritted teeth.

"They're just concerned because you've been very quiet for the last two weeks." Maya informed me as she sat herself down next to me in homeroom.

"I just don't want to talk to anyone." I told her firmly and ended the conversation by putting my head phones back in. She opened her mouth to retaliate but stopped herself, knowing I wouldn't budge.

Music becomes everyone's best friend after something tragic happens. My last stupid confrontation with Caleb left me scarred for life; I felt overly humiliated and used leading myself to believe I wasn't worth even a dime. 

Lana Del Rey's lyrics soon became my bible and everything else became a formality I had complete in order to stay alive. All the boys seemed different around me as well and had this sympathetic expression slapped across their faces which I didn't want.

However I couldn't just abandoned them today at their spring football tournament. My heart ached again the memory of Caleb telling me how his jersey would better on me than him. I shook my head to get his memories out of my head that were unfortunately embedded in my brain.

"I mean why did I even go to him that day?" I asked Maya on our way to first period which I shared with her.

"You wanted closer K..." She told me patiently as this was probably the hundredth time I've asked her the exact question.

"But he just humiliated me and I just stood there like an idiot telling him he would... erghh." I growled in frustration making Maya stop in her tracks.

"Look, K it's been two weeks and I've seen you cry yourself to sleep nearly every night and I'm not having that anymore. I know you need more time BUT you also need a rebound to get over him. So at tonight's after party... I'm getting you a rebound guy." She told me with a wicked smile on her face.

"You know I won't even go to the party."

"Yes you will because I'm dragging you there, I'm not telling you to lose your virginity, I'm just saying... it's no harm to get some sugar." She grabbed my hand and started walking towards the history block.

Flashback

"I don't want to talk to you or see you... so stop following me or texting me." He shouted firmly avoiding my gaze as he tried to walk past me to only have me step sideways to block his path.

"I only want to ask one question." I mentally slapped myself for sounding overly venerable.

"ERGH..." He moved back a couple of feet away from me while running a hand through his untamed tousled raven hair. God I miss doing that myself... "Fine." He shouted over his shoulder as he stood still with his legs parted and his back towards me. 

His maroon letterman jacket hung loosely from his shoulders emphasizing his broad back while his light blue ripped jeans hugged his legs perfectly, creasing near his ankle where his dark blue muddy high top remained.

"Did I do anything wrong?"

This was the moment I was preparing myself for a week now with the help from Maya and Saira. We tried to come up with many reasons why he'd do something like that to me; why would he suddenly ignore me and be with someone else. The only valid explanation was that he was simply over me.

"Kira, we weren't together to begin with..." He spoke through gritted teeth as he paced around in discomfort. Although I've been training my heart to stay strong in front of him, I just couldn't help but feel my heart shatter into million pieces all over again.

"I know that... but I thought-"

"Well you thought wrong... we just messed around... just a time pass... that's all" I think it would have hurt less if he physically ripped my heart right out of my chest and squeeze all the blood out of it. The intense venom in his voice made my throat constrict making tears as sharp as needles prickle the back of my eye.

"So you're over me?" I asked looking down at the grassy ground that reflected the yellow sun rays beaming down on its surface while a cool breeze dances around us.

"I was never into you in the first place..." His voice became hoarse and tight. I took a sharp intake of breath trying to prevent the whimper that threatened to escape my lips.

"I...I..." My head suddenly exploded with redundant amount of thoughts making me extremely light headed.

"Look..." He stated. "Let me make it easy for you... you're not that special... it wasn't hard for me to lose interest in you... it wasn't going to work out anyways... you're too complicated."

My head shot up as his confession allowing a soft whimper to escape my lips. I stared up at the back of his head as he stood still yet rigid with his hands shoved into his jeans pocket. 

There was no need for him to strip me down from the pedestal he put me on. 

He made me think and feel like I was his everything and then suddenly he ripped everything away from me. In a way it's understandable, that's what guys do right? 

They make you feel like you're the only girl in the world and then for no apparent reason they move on to someone else. Someone prettier, better and someone with less baggage. That's why he chose that other girl.

Thankfully rage and hatred took over my emotions providing me with the courage to face him without breaking down in front of him. After taking a long breath in, I clenched my jaws tight and waited for my heart to feel numb.

"Does she make you happy?" I asked gulping loudly while conjuring all the courage to look up at him because for some odd reason my mind didn't comprehend his cruel word, forcing me to say my last peace to him.

"Of course." He replied instantly through gritted teeth again.

"Good." I sighed with a sad smile making him whip his whole body around to face me with a shocked face. My heart melted at the sight of his handsome features, he still had those long stubbles, like he doesn't care anymore. 

"You deserve to be happy Caleb." I whispered out loud nodding at him as I slowly retreated back towards the parking lot. I quickly turned around as a stubborn tear escaped my left eye which I angrily wiped away.

 After holding my breath for a while to sober myself up from the pain, I half turned to see the same visage I turned away from. 

His lips remained slightly parted while his hands were fisted by his side. An unfathomable seen of guilt crossed his dark eyes as they glistened in the radiant sunlight.

"She's the luckiest girl in the world now... She must be very special to have stolen your heart, Caleb." I fought through the tears and the lump in my throat and carried on. "I guess someone's loss is someone else's lucky gain... I'm sorry for causing you all the troubles... I thought you were different... I guess I was wrong."

With that I swiftly turned around, fisting the material of my red t-shirt that lay across my heart as waves of salty beads poured out of my eyes. 

From the corner of my eyes, I saw a turquoise car start and make its way towards the parking spot I headed towards. 

Opening my mouth to breathe I looked up at the clear baby blue sky, blinking rapidly trying to stop crying as my soul kept dying over and over again for every step I took walking away from him. 

The passenger door fell open instantly as it reached me revealing Maya's sympathetic and wary figure as she held out a hand for me, gesturing me to get in while the other remained on the steering wheel.

"Drive." I choked out through my silent sobs as I slammed the door shut -with all the force I had left in me- fiddling with my seat belt while hiding away from Caleb because I couldn't let him see me weak. 

I couldn't let him think he defeated me although deep down I knew that he was aware of how he had emotionally killed me. 

As soon as she hit the gas paddle the car jerked forward sending both of us flying back making our bodies crash lightly with the back of the seat. 

Instantly I slumped down putting the heels of my feet up on the seat in a sitting fetus positions as I covered my shameful face with both of my trembling hands while my chin vibrated from self-control. 

After a couple of minutes of trying to calm myself down, a loud sob left my lips followed by numerous others –including the uncontrollable waterworks- that echoed through the silent car while one of Maya's comforting hand rested on the back of my neck while she steered the car with the other hand.

End of Flashback