Here I go again, again same schedule, again same teachers, again all. This was my last year in the college. After that, a simple job, marriage, kids and finish, Just like that!

Hi by the way! I'm Rehan. Let me give you my introduction in brief. Average height, Average weight, Average looks, in short, I am perfect to be an Average person

You knew that you were special in someone's eyes. I had them, I had that eyes. And yes, I was perfect for her, I wondered how I looked in her eyes. I would ask this, may be! But we average persons always had a fear in our hearts. One day I might overcome it.

Come on! We all have this problem.

"INSECURITY". 

That factor had ruined relationships and already did ruined many. Yes, I mean seriously, we all had this fear within, somewhere! We couldn't deny since we all had felt insecure sometimes, it was not always about trust but, yes, that factor affects.

All begun with a strange Hi! And then no one knew when the spark lightened up and caught into a fire. Same happened with me and Tanya.

She was a fresher while I was already a senior, we met in a college festival and it tripped in my mind that this girl was calming me! Relaxing my mind with her voice, I felt so happy I really wanted her to be in my life, the five days we spent in festival practice were really one of the memorable and deciding days of my life.

And like olden times, I tracked her down,

I used to send a bouquet to her classroom, from an unknown name, of course, I seemed to be courage less with these, but I really was feeling very nervous about it and wanted her to be convinced anyway but leaving her in mystery won't help, I knew. One day I gathered my guts and said it all!

I said it and returned with red cheeks which had her fingerprints on and I wanted to write a new fortune for us, on that. She slapped me hard in the face. That day I noticed the simplicity in that girl. May be she was the one and soon confirmed that she was the one.

These were the things that drew me towards her. I was daydreaming the future. Yes, that was it. I wanted her, then and there. I kept trying and I guessed, she started to notice me too.

I had really nice reputation in front of my college mates. Now it was time for earning her respect. I had to do something from which I could get some of those.

I decided to participate in our college festival and sing a song. Well, it was the last thing I could do! I wanted to propose her in front of everyone, that is why I chose a Ghazal to express my feelings. But still, fear inside me was remaining about her answer, after that. The days passed away, quickly. My singing practice was in progress, in between these days I tried to approach her. And finally I did talk to her, "

"Why do you run so much? I haven't seen a girl like you!", I said while she was drinking coffee, It was heavily raining.

She made contact with my eyes and said, "Why can't earth have good girls?" she went.

Yes, it was another confirmation that I wanted her keenly and desperately. Girl like her never entered my life before. So clean! so good! so beautiful! so peaceful!

I would really regret if I lose her. Finally the day came... The day of performance. I was prepared, but was quite nervous too. I knew my nervousness wouldn't help me through. My name was announced, I stepped up, I was prepared, my eyes were searching for her presence in so many of the audience. I grabbed the microphone and said, "Hello." 

I was really sounding attention seeker because I knew people would yell back, again and the next time they yelled so loudly that it made me feel confident. I was prepared to start, I begun

" Bahut Khoobsurat Hai Aankhen Tumhari,

Bana Dijiye Inhe Kismat Humhari."

Which meant, Your eyes are so beautiful, that I want to make them mine, please make them my fortune.

I found her, her eyes watching me, so focused.

"I Love You Tanya! I really do. Would you like to spend the rest of your Life with Me?", I thought some simple lines would be enough for some simple people.

The crowd fell into silence. Waiting for her answer, so was I.

She blinked and her answer was clear.

From that day till a year after, We were together.

I don't know how the hell did the time fly We were happy really, really happy. 

Me and Tanya completed one year, it was intense love between us, at least I believed that! Everything was perfect for a one year couple. We dreamt our future. The worst thing was, we dared to live it! Just the day before, I got a ring for her, it was really a difficult job to find the perfect size as her finger size was really small but I loved it when it fitted between my fingers so perfectly, it seemed like they were made for me. All was going well, all was seeming perfect until my college trip.

Which couple dint get into fight? Some of them sort things out and some believed that they would survive in all the situation, no matter how bad it was but it would never work, trust me! Without sorting things out, it would get worse.

In my case too, it all started with small problems but the big one started just then.

My college trip, I was very much excited for it, might be because I waited a long for it. Tanya didn't want me to go because her exams were going on and she needed me here to support her. I wanted to go, but her face stopped me. I understood the circumstances and cancelled my trip just because she wanted me to. And even I thought that if she needed me here, then why not? Plus it was our first year anniversary too and I was leaving. Even I felt unfair. I decided to stay back and enjoy our first year anniversary.

Tanya was happy that I cancelled my trip and decided to stay with her and to support her. In fact, I was happy somewhere deep inside, not totally but I was.

18th June,

Again, the date came with an excitement. The date on which I proposed Tanya. The date when we came near. I was excited to wish Tanya for our anniversary. It was 12 o'clock, midnight and I called Tanya.

I was not really surprised that she was talking with someone else that was why it showed me busy!

That was what I was talking about, in the sense of small problems.

The problem started when she entered second year of college. Tanya's class shifted and with that some new people entered her life. I was concerned, as soon as a boy named Rohit, drew my attention. He really seemed mad, flirting all day, even then knowing a girl was committed. His intentions might be dangerous and that time it was Tanya, as always girl would go close to those who showed love and care. Even if it was someone else who showed, then it dint matter if she had a boyfriend or not.

Same happened to Tanya. My innocent Tanya was trapped, a trap from which she could not escape.

I wouldn't have to describe the traps, should I? Come on, we all knew it. I would love to describe what happened next after all the trap thing was done. Alright, she was trapped in the sense they got close. Me and Tanya started fighting over small things. We were getting irritated with each other. Tanya started spelling his name every day in front of me on any topic. It was really getting difficult day by day. We had many fights over and over, day by day, I was managing... somehow digesting that, but some things were indigestible.

I puked out everything, on Tanya, about all that happened. I mean puked every day. But still all the blame was on me that I was doubting and ruining such a WONDERFUL thing. I mean, wow. Was that, that easy to say? But for her it became easy. She was becoming a different person, a person whom I never met. Besides Rohit was becoming stronger, day by day, as I was pushed away every day.

I had only option left, IGNORE. I could just ignore them. May be.

So this was my small problem!

And because of which I was not surprised when it showed Tanya's phone was busy to me. Well anyway, after a couple of minutes we talked and wished each other. Her mood seemed pleasant like she really was happy. I was happy knowing that.

We were going to meet at 9 pm, the same day. We couldn't spend the whole day together because her exams were also going on and after that she was going out to study! At least that was what she told me.

It was nearly 7 pm, I was getting ready and my phone rang, it was my friend who was also in the batch of Tanya. I ignored his call as he was really irritating sometimes. He called again and again, after few rings I picked up.

" Hello Rehan? Why are you not picking up my call? Do you even have any sense about how important call this can prove?" He seemed really angry, I never had heard such tone from him.

"Vedant cool down! Tell me, what is it? Is it about the notes you told me to bring and I forgot to bring?"

"Rehan I was at Rohit's house, We all were at his house in fact. When we all finished, Tanya entered, hugged Rohit, seemed excited about something. First I thought she might want to tell us all about her anniversary. But she didn't tell anything to anyone. Not even responding properly. She looked messed up. We all left. But I forgot my notes at Rohit house. For that I went back and.... I saw them smooching. The door was open maybe they were in hurry THIS TIME. Might have been forgotten to lock the door. I don't know how to say this Rehan but even I saw Condoms at his house. You know he stays alone. I'm not saying that they were for today and for Tanya, but I don't know brother. Take care. And yes, Happy Anniversary" Vendant hung up.

I was wordless, clueless, helpless.