This has nothing to do with her, but you know what I told you happened earlier today?

Well, I know I shouldn't, but I keep beating myself up over it.

I argued with her about it after, yeah. But when the two men were around I was silent af

And I was thinking, imagine how horrible it would be for someone to yell at you for that. To go home feeling terrible.

I did nothing to stop it.

Hell, I almost smiled.
It's weird. My defence mechanism is laughter. When I'm in pain or fear, I laugh at myself or make a joke out of it.

Point is, I found it so bad I almost laughed. I hate that

I just wish I'd said something more. Even apologised once she'd left

But instead, I was bloody ignorant and let it go