I have many "friends".

"Friends" who say that they are there for me, yet they never are.

I'm tired of it.

I want real friends.

People who invited me to things.

My "friend" groups always hang out without me.

I am nice to them all, and they throw me in the dirt.

I want to be included.

I want to be in the room where it happens.

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i don't remember when i wrote this, but it was late 2016/ early 2017. now it being march 12th, 2018, i can say that i feel the same way as i did then.