She's a actress, she's always acting, she can paint on a pretty smile and smile, but really she wants it to end, the pain, the stress, the voices in her head. She has the things to kill herself, bleach, pills, a gun, she has some stuff and she can did. Fast a painless. But she would rather see her mother and Step father smile and get mad at her for silly things, than to cry burying her body 6 feet under. Her mother and step dad say she puts herself first but she puts them first because if she put herself first then she would finally be happy. She would finally be gone, no longer living on this earth she would then be happy. She would get what she wanted. But she knows no parents should have to bury their child, that's what her mother told her. All the pointless fights, between her parents and her, she'd take them any day that see them crying and upset over her body. So she gives up her happiness for her parents...for her mother and step dad..