LOL THE CHAPTER IS NOT AS DRAMATIC AS THE TITLE MAKES IT SEEM LIKE I JUST DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO TITLE IT

I feel like one of those YouTubers with click bait ass titles like David Dobrik or some shit SMH 

Okay totally off topic for a second, has anyone else noticed that click bait titles have become such a common thing that when youtubers aren't click baiting they litERALLY HAVE TO CLARIFY IN THE TITLE LIKE "(not click bait!) BC THE REST OF THEIR CHANNEL IS CLICK BAIT LMAOO

but anyway to the point of this rant

So I was looking at my drafts of stories and I realized over the years I have started SO MANY STORIES THAT I NEVER WENT THORUGH WITH, LIKE SO MANY

they range from like 1-5 chapters each but i mean the amount chapters doesn't relly matter bc they're all dead regardless 

RIP

I have this problem where I just get these ideas and I HAVE to start them as soon as I think of them bc I am passionate about it and shit, but then I get over it in like a week so I just ditch it

I also bite off more than I can chew bc I will literally be writing a whole fic but then I'll get another idea and I'll start writing that one, so I get bored of the original idea and it's just a vicious cycle that leads to dead and forgotten fics

the only thing this didn't happen to was this rant book just because, straight up, this book doesn't require me to actually try and be a good writer or keep up with a storyline thank god

also, i am TOO DISORGANIZED TO WRITE A LEGIT STORY LIKE MY THOUGHTS GO FUCKING EVERYWHERE AND I AM INDECSISVE LIKE WRITING A WHOLE STORY IS SUCH A COMMITMENT 

literally, when I write rants I will like to start with a random paragraph that ends up in the middle of a rant, then write the intro, write the closing part and then like the rest of the middle just because im like a little crazy 

but again, the problem with this shit is that I also have random bursts of passion that lead to the 1-4 chapters of like 408 books that I will never actually go through with 

I would always do this thing where I would tell myself I'm gonna write 5 chapters of something before I post it so I know that I want to go through with it, but I would get too excited and then post when I only have 2 chapters and be like "I'm so excited for this story!!! definitely going through with it!!" and then dELETE TWO SECONDS LATER LMAO I HATE MYSELF

I think I may do reactions to some of the chapters of the books I started bc I feel like they need to be published somewhere so I didn't just write them for no reason. I actually started writing a while ago a completely revised version of my first fic (the one I do the reactions to) and it's actually not half bad but I know that I will NEVER actually go through with finishing it bc I'm trash

-Mare :)xx

this rant literally has no point, it's just like the good ole days

also, my 3 year anniversary of wattpad was January 16th and I fucking forgot and MISSED IT but whatever 

although, it's probably more like 4 years bc FUN FACT I used to come on here with no account to read After by Anna Todd but I decided to make an account so I could comment on After. Like I dead ass used to be an OG Anna Todd fan I started reading when she was updating After 2 and literally sHE FOLLOWS ME ON HERE LMAOOO. idk if she still does but I don't see why she would take the time to unfollow me. Unless she saw that i started posting shit about how i hate after then yeah maybe

she unfollowed me on twitter tho which is funny bc i literally sent her a tweet and was like "please unfollow me" adn sHE DID LMAOOO

I just think it's funny bc the thing I now hate so much is what brought me to wattpad SMH. we all learn from our mistakes I guess