Well, I haven't really updated my rant book in a while, I was focusing more on upcoming stories but I know some people may have gone through a first breakup or hasn't had one yet and its something everyone can relate to. (DISCLAIMER: This happened today and if you know him please do not bombard him with questions or hurt him in any way) 

This is HOW we broke up skip this if you want to 

As some people know I had a Boyfriend, today I was downtown with a few friends and I was informed that he wasn't sure if we were dating. (He said "Do you want to date?" on March 26, 2018!!! bruh...) So I decided to ask him if we were, He was wondering why I would ask. And my friend texted for me saying "I just feel like we were and we barely hang out" which is true. He then said "Oh I don't really want the time for something serious," I just never hung out with him. I barely saw him outside of school. "and it's simpler to call each other friends."

THIS WAS ALL OVER TEXT. 

Ok, that's over... 

So I broke down in tears in public like this was the FIRST GUY I truly cared about. this was at 4 pm..? Around then and now it's 11:30 at night. Thankfully my friend helped me and we went home but she stayed at my house for a few hours and went out to dinner with me and my dad. 

I wouldn't stop crying for 30 minutes. and most people that know me I don't cry easily. And well Ironically I was working on a romance book so I will probably not write it for a few days.

WEll if anyone has any advice to help me, I will take anything. So far I have just been crying, I have a sinking feeling in my chest, and I'm weak from my toes to my head. So this will be fun. 

(Just a side note, this was the first guy I truly cared about. I have had crushes but they mostly went away. He was my first boyfriend which sucks, I became happy just seeing him after a long period of time, a month or so, and now that's done) So happy times.

Best wishes to everyone,

CYA