I love acting.  Or, ya know, drama class.

I just love the feeling of being someone else while still knowing that I haven't changed.

However, those of you who really know me know I don't like cursing.

The only way I'd write those words if I needed to would be the first letter followed by the rest of the letters as astericks.

Like...if the character is an IRL person who curses, then I wouldn't particularly cut it out.

But I'm getting off topic.

Acting.

We're doing this thing where we memorize a script and then perform it in front of the class.

It's a duet script of Golden Pond.  Act 2 scene 1 for anyone who knows it (cuz I don't xD).

Anyways, I'm the daughter who is an adult with a child and she came to her mother's house to pick up her child.

It's pretty fun, but there's a part where Chelsea (the daughter) gets angry about something Ethel (her mother) says.

Chelsea:  [Turning to the mantel and picking up a picture]  Look at this.  Chelsea on the swim team.  That was a great exercise in humiliation.

Ethel:  Oh, stop it.  You were a good diver.

Chelsea:  I wasn't a good diver.  I was a good sport.  I could never do a d*** back flip.

Our drama teacher says that, unless it's the f-word, that we should keep it in.

I agree to that, but it's just...weird to me.  You wouldn't believe how many people actually froze in their script practicing when I said that line.  I never curse.  EVER.

I actually like keeping it in because to say dang instead of that word would kinda degrade how she really felt.

It's just...weird.

I don't like that I like saying it.  It makes me feel...personally immoral.

I mean, I know it's just acting, but it just makes me feel bad.  .-.

I just have to push through that because I love acting.

But....

I dunno.  I just don't like the feeling I get when I get to that part.

Uh, well, I do because I get angry at people's ignorance IRL.  :P

If that makes sense.