I was playing the violin with my sister, right? Seems fun. Though since I just started the violin this year and my sister started 3 years ago, she knows more about the violin then I do and thinks it's easier. My sister talked about all of my insecurities when I do something on the violin.

Like she was saying you aren't holding it right, you don't lift your bow every time on a rest, you need to use a shoulder rest, like c'mon. I just started about a month ago and your saying this to a beginner? Plus, I know half of the stuff you're telling me.

It made me feel bad about myself because she was saying all of these things to me. She wasn't telling me all the good stuff I was doing right, just the stuff that I'm 'bad' at.

I wasn't even holding it wrong, I just was resting my violin on my chin a little bit instead of my jaw. Because the chin rest is where you rest your jaw and whatever. And not only that, she played a song that I am working on good and asked me to play it. I played it, but it made me feel like I wasn't good enough because I kept on messing up.

My bow kept on hitting other strings and I wasn't getting the right pitch. It's like when she does something wrong she's like, whatever, then fixes it. But when I do something wrong she has to point it out. Even though I know how to fix it she tells me otherwise.

It just makes me hate myself and hate playing the violin.

It's like, what was it like for you when you were a beginner? Didn't you mess these things up? Nobody told all of your insecurities or things your mistaking.

Welp, that's my rant story.