I just hate myself, I made my friends worry about me, especially my friend, who I will hide in the name 'Jace'. 

Okay soo, Jace is a really good friend of mine but we haven't known each other for a year bUT, we're getting there. 

What I mean by that is, we're close to one year lol. Alright, he's a funny crackhead but, the only thing I don't like about him is uh, when he's mad he's just straight up shutting everyone out. I mean, I can't blame him! Everyone does that, right?? 

Well um, he likes this one person but uH, I kinda like him ;-;;

Because of his caring personality and he's such a softie when it comes to me. 

To be honest, I don't like having crushes. 

It's not that I don't like people, but like, I don't want to like anyone that's real. 

Yeah, I'm basically saying that I want to stick to anime boys XDDD 

But, it's true, anime boys are better than boys irl; that's my opinion here. 

I'm not saying that irl boys are bad and stuff, I just don't like how they literally treat girls so differently out of all the people. 

For example, my friend treats me like trash while he treats other people nicely. 

This is one of the reasons why I don't like people. 

AHEM, TO ALL OF THE BOYS THAT ARE OFFENDED, I AM SORRY. I'M NOT SAYING THAT ALL BOYS ARE THE SAME.

Alright, back to the topic. 

Jace likes someone who I will hide in the name 'Winter', Winter is partially a nice and mean person, and she's a bit boyish. 

Apparently, Winter knows that Jace likes her, but Winter doesn't really care ;-; 

I MEAN, YEAH JACE IS SUCH A DICK SOMETIMES BUT STILL!

Oh, well, I don't even want to meet the side where he's a dick, but Winter has to deal with it everyday. But I don't think Winter doesn't care- 

She's also an ass herself, ngl. 

But, she's also like an angel at times. 

I told Jace about my situation and I don't really know if Jace told Winter my situation, all he said was "I bet Winter forgot you ;-;"  

I think Winter forgot about me though, she doesn't really talk to me anymore. 

Anyways- 

I told Jace about my situation and he got worried and stuff, and he said really nice things about me. 

But I don't think that he means it. 

Jace, I know that you're gonna be mad at me for thinking that I don't believe all the things you said, but it's what I think about. It just surprises me that you think about me as a good friend. 

The thought of him saying really good things about me, though .___. 

There's nothing really good about me, I just try to be nice to everyone, even to those people who I don't like. But this one dude really pisses me off- 

Sighh, I just can't take it anymore ;-; 

I should just avoid Jace. 

But, I don't know how he will feel if he finds out that I'm trying to avoid him.. every time I open my discord he's always there to DM me ;w; 

This is it for now, though. 

Sayonara