*apparates into the middle of your existance in a poof of blue sprinkle smoke*

HI HELLO HEY THERE HOW IS EVERYBAAAADDYYYYY??????????😀😀😀🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊

I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BACK AND WRITING SOMETHING! HIATUSES SUCK DOORKNOBS BUT GOSH DARN IT I MISSED Y'ALL!

And yes that's a Dr.Mike video above on probiotics to show how much I care for you guys, totally NOT because I'm obsessed with him aw hell naw.

A lot of things have happened. A lot. Nothing juicy or dramatic of course, this is my life here nothing interesting ever happens (yeah I know stop looking so disappointed I am too.) But hey, I got into uni, I'm 700km (that's 435 miles to you people who don't follow the SK system you're welcome) away from home, my roommates are fabulous, I bought a new teddy, two of my sisters from the CRAZYFAM are leaving Wattpad, I finished Fairy Tail and I'm...good.

There's a lot I've been wanting to talk about. But each time I pick up my phone and open Wattpad to rant, something or the other pops up and I lose the fire. Like scrolling mindlessly through Instagram or YouTube like a brainless rag doll which I kinda think I am now, but let's let that slide. Sometimes I blame my phone, that typing here is so hard but then I open my laptop and remember I can't type there for shit and I just give up altogether.

Other times, I'm just busy.

Uni is busy. It's SO busy. Mine is probably the only one in India that has three exams in one semester and that's taxing in itself. I could talk for pages about my university, and I want to. Everything that's amazing, everything that sucks and the little in betweens. But idk maybe some day.

Hostel life in college is so much more pleasurable that school, lemme tell ya that. And it's probably because I've lived in what can be equated to a pig sty and eaten what can be compared to pig food back then that here in Uni, I felt like the privileges were 5 star leveled and couldn't relate to the rest of my peers complaining at the top of their voices.

Hey I'm thankful for what I've got here.

Except the toilets. I sincerely wish more people were born with the 'flush after you poop' gene in their bodies because honestly.

(Sorry about that, NOT.)

Welp, it's been forever and a half since my last update on anything but here I am, talking shit again. I've met so many different kinds of people in this short span of time: good ones, amazing ones, sweet ones, sour ones, salty ones, spicy ones, spoilt ones, snakes, rats, dolphins, vixens, lions, elephants and so on. I've made friends that I already love, but making friends is so hard once you grow up, because everyone already has a close knit bunch of buddies, and especially for someone like me.

I fit in nowhere, honestly.

It's strange, because that's not what people see. My roommates always go on about how 'social' I am and how I know so many people and that's TRUE. I do know a lot of people but I'm not...friends with them, in the real sense of that word.

I don't have the Fairy Tail type of feelings inducing nakama type friends yet.

I do have people who come close tho. And hey guess what, all of them are here of wattpad 😂😂
arushi0214 swagatak Shriyaverenkar
mysticheart92001 are four of them, all silent readers who won't say hi here.

Honestly, it's hard for an introverted bookish anime nerd. I'm not popular, I'm not hawt, I don't know anything about what's happening in the Kardashian family or whatever family it is people obsess about these days. I don't know shit about GOT or whatever popular TV series is going on. I don't know the latest tracks or the beef between Eminem and MGK (Sorry twinzay) or any of that. I wear sweats to class and look homeless most of the time and hey Uni has good food so I look way fatter than I used to be, as everyone back home was so kind enough to point out and be sad about. Thanks. I don't want to talk about sex and who banged who and all R-rated shit 24/7. I don't want to make fun of other people's feelings either.

Which is why most of the conversations amongst my peers don't interest me. Do I feel alienated? Yes. But once I give it some thought, I know I'd rather stay alienated than force myself to fit in to somewhere I don't.

Once again, I make friends and I'm immediately the 'mommy' of the group. I guess it's like a curse that won't go away, this happens to me everywhere and I like it, it's who I am. I love that people find it comfortable to come and talk to me and trust me enough to get advice from me (when idk wtf I'm doing with life half the time). Its a nice feeling to be depended on for a talk or some comfort. I'll gladly give it.

But it does get lonely sometimes, because being a mommy automatically makes me feel like while I can listen to everyone's anything, I can't do the same. I automatically close up and settle for dealing with my problems by myself because well...I'm supposed to take care of my 'kids' and be there for them, not entirely the other way around. Does that make sense? Idk eh. But yes, it does get a little lonely, especially when you feel like you don't know where you fill in, where you fit perfectly, but now...I think that's okay. It's okay not to fit in, it's okay not to have everything you fantasized about. Just don't let it get you down. My life here in Uni is nothing like I spent my entire time dreaming it would be. But there are so many things that are different and special here that when I focus on them, life looks good. Amazing in fact.

And it's those things you focus on and use to pull yourself back up.

Idk what the point of this rant was, it seems like stew to me but whatever, I just wanted to pop in, say Hi, bore y'all and ask how you're doing. Hopefully everyone's in better places and having fun. If not, well, remember to count your blessings. It's not easy at all and it's the most annoying pice of advice but there's honestly NOTHING else you can do.

Count em. And then square em and add em just for the heck of it because maths.

Well, have fun everyone. Until next time❤️😀👋