I first saw the number of questions and fainted. 😔

Dw I'm up now tho. Imma just get this started. Thanks for tagging me, Muffin. What Muffin says, Sprinkles does😔

1. Sexual orientation:

Okay so last time, I said "I'm a unicorn" and apparently people misunderstand that so Imma give a proper answer here― straight as a rod. And that's that.

2. What I'm really bad at:

Pshhh that's easy. Sports, not being lazy, not procrastinating, maintaining relationships, cooking, dieting or working out, letting go of people, self motivation😔

3. The one person who's arms I'd like to be in:

First of all, cringe. Second of all, mum and dad, I guess. Because they're one person, not two.

4. My best first date:

😂😂 If anyone thought I've been on a date, joke's on you.

5. A description of my self-esteem:

Ephemeral, mostly on the non-existant side of the spectrum. But eh, sometimes I'm super confident, sometimes I'm not. 😔

6. Who my best friends are:

I feel like I've done this before but okay!

◆IRL : Munni❤️ and  Mr.Sunrise❤️

◆Wattpad:

•errormessage : CAZZZZZZZZZ The writer of the most amazing book 'Against The Universe' with the cutest most amazing characters😭😭😭 Y'all gotta go check it out. I love ya, and I'm sorry I'm such a shitty friend, just lemme get my exams done with AND WE'LL WATCH MOVIES TOGETHER AGAIN PROMISE.

Soft and sarcastic and sensitive, my cazzzzzia is bootifool❤️😭

•SoxyPoxy: MY BISH. Soxie my spiritual, knowledgeable, witty, compassionate, energetic hoe. She's so amazing to talk to, and so funny and indulging and hard working and relatable and I love ya, Sox😭😭😭❤️

•latejune: KIM. MY SNAPCHAT BUD. She's so funny her snaps always crack me up istg😂😂😂 She's so witty and always makes me smile with her snaps I LOVE Kim sending me the most funny photos😂😂😂 When you wear that red lipstick I turn to vapour, just saying❤️❤️❤️

•fahteematu_: Maggie McFluffer❤️. My hoe.  Evil ass, she sells souls for a living. Amazaynly witty (happy now?), Oh so fabulous, we plan to take over the world together but she keeps ditching me for other people you absolute pig. But seriously though, don't cross her, she's got weapons. And she'll kick your ass with em🔥🔥🔥

•EmmyraldEmpress: My first ever friend here on Wattpad😭😭😭 my chuddy buddy. I don't see you at all these days and that sucks. SHE'S THE SWEETEST PERSON YOU'LL EVER MEET ISTG. So encouraging and so friendly to everyone she meets. If it weren't for you, Emmy, I'd never have continued on here and I'm so glad I found you❤️❤️❤️❤️ YOU LIVE CLOSE TO MY HEART. IN A NICE WOODEN HUT. WITH A LAKESIDE VIEW. Everybody who loves badass princesses with swords and fighting and Abu, go read her book 'Words of Swords' it's amaaazaaayyynnn.

•ForceOfTheSea: My precious precious Muffin❤️ Outgoing and smart and sensitive and the best person you can go to to have your mood lifted. She's adorable, and so sweet RIP your teeth. My Muffin's a wittle muffin who gets hurt easily so everybody beware. I've got blunt forks and I'm not afraid to use them istg.

For real though, Muffin. Keep doing you. You couldn't be any better than you are now to me, I love you❤️❤️❤️

•CinderallaMan: Eh, rap god. Celestial poet. Ass-a-miss dumbbutt. Full of beautifully intricate nonsense❤️. Best twinzay ever. Talented af. Seriously though, if anybody wants to read absolutely beautiful, enigmatic poetry that gives you both goosebumps and warm fuzzy feelings, the book is 'Death and all his friends' 🔥🔥🔥

Cinderally, you know where to look in case you ever forget I a-pree-sea-ate you. 😔

•AbysmalRose: MY MOMMA. She's so sweet and funny and kind and caring like a real mom to us idiots❤️❤️❤️❤️ And she's so talented and sensitive. I love it when you sing for us, mama. And it's amazing how you're always here for us😭

•LushWriter_07: ELLA. My dirty minded, sarcastic, absolutely fantabulous sister with a beautiful soul ❤️🔥❤️🔥 She's so sweet and fluffy sometimes but then so far deep in the gutter like you won't believe.

Also, she gives sex-ed classes apparently. Anyone in need, hit her up⬆️

•_Choppers_: my wittle niece❤️ so adorable and murderous and smol. We go on massacres together😊 CHIBI, I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU❤️❤️❤️❤️

•katianaelyse: So aesthetic, my Kitty. Niece number two, also murderous and CUTE AF. I like to think I'm her favourite Aunty❤️❤️❤️ LET'S KILL SOMEONE SOON OKAY?

•GigiGenieGirl: A part of my fam, but I haven't gotten to talk to her properly yet. All I know is she's so sweet and adorable❤️❤️❤️❤️ Little Genie. Hope you come back soon.

•Dalsmaree: MY SUPER AMAZING AUNT.E❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ She gives meh food and candy and whatever I ask for and she's so friendly and fit in with the crazy fam so perfectly😭😭😭 I luv ya❤️

•Saiyan_Oliver: Oliver our very own superhero!! He saves people from any sortbof danger, fights all sorts of bad guys on a daily basis and turns into super cool super saiyans whenever the world needs him. He's also pretty 'eh' about everything but is so adorable at the same time. My brother in la― ❤️❤️❤️ YOU LIGHTEN UP MY DAY AND KEEP THE FAM INTERESTING, THANK YOU OLIVER I LOVE YOU❤️

•I have one more aunt I'd like to talk about but I haven't had a chance to talk to her yet because of fucking time zones😭😭😭😭😭😭 but I KNOW she gonna be lit.

Cuz all of the crazy fam are😏
    
7. My favourite book:

Bahahahahahahahahahahah Harry Potter if it isn't obvious from my username.

8. Biggest turn offs:

Hmmm. Too much arrogance, being unnecessarily rude and macho or some shit, and disrespecting anyone I love. I think. Also, lack of cleanliness. Looooong nails. AND INVADING MY FREEDOM EVEN THE TINIEST BIT. Nope. Just nope.

9. A description of my best friend:

Already done it ha!

10. My favourite animal:

DOGGOS. DOGGOS FOREVER❤️😭😭😭

11. Someone I miss:

Atm, no one. Yesterday I would've said my dad, but he's back home now so😁

12. The reason behind my last breakup:

Told y'all before😔 He refused to share his crayons with me. Pretty dick move imo I mean if he can't even share crayons, how is he supposed to share food?! And if he doesn't share food, how am I supposed to be with someone like that?!

13. What I did yesterday:

Whored around Hangouts all day long because I'm a worrywart. OH. I ALSO ATE ICECREAM YESTERDAY. LIKE A WHOLE LOT OF BASKIN ROBINS. IT WAS AMAZAYN.

14. What my greatest achievements are:

Hmm.... I'm not sure? Never really got any achievements to speak of. I guess I've won some essay and story writing competitions when I was younger. That's about it.

15. A description of the person I dislike the most:

Tbh, there is no such person at the moment. 🤔 I'm going through my non-existant list. Hmm...

16: My favourite songs right now:

Oh wrong question. There's too many😭
● Ed Sheeran ― Perfect (It's a constant)
● Dua Lipa ― New Rules
● Hailee Steinfeld ― Capital letters
● Brodha V ― all of them, I....I can't pick😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
● Jai Waetford ― Shy
● Charlie Puth ― Attention
● Eminem ― Mockingbird (Attack On Feels)
● Glenn Travis ― Blind, Feel my love
● Max ft. Gnash ― Lights down low
● The Script ― Breakeven, Dead man walking, Science & Faith, Glowing, Superheroes, Six degrees of separation― I could go in but you get the gist, they're awesome.
● Train ― Hey Soul Sister
● Kacey Musgraves ― Follow your arrow
● Alessia Cara ― Scars to your beautiful

Okay Imma stop now but know that I haven't even scratched the surface. This is such a mean question😭😭

17. How my last kiss went down:

It didn't?

18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex:

Hmm....a good, down to earth personality; polite, respectful, tiny ego. And always respects my freedom, and independence. It's always a plus if they really get along with me first which is a little hard because I have a dirty habit of pushing such people, boys with potential, away when they get too close to me😬😔

Which is kinda ironic, now that I think about my dad―uh...I mean...

Oh and then I guess, hair, smile, hands, and height. Or something, I dunno.

19. All of the pets I've ever had:

Ah this is sad.

Number one: Blacky, my black Labrador. He was the sweetest puppy ever and we had a good few years together before we had to move away to Banglore, and had to give him away. That was heartbreaking in itself, but yeah we visited him almost every year after that, as often as we could because his new owner wasn't always around. And...yeah last year he passed away. He was around 8 years old. That's young.

Strangely, I was in boarding school at that time, and just a week before his death, my dad called me saying they were going to go see him and I took the week off of school even though it cost me later, but I went and saw him one last time. A week later, he's gone.

*sigh* okay this is more depressing than I thought.

Um, next would be a stray kitty I called Messy because he messed up the little cardboard box house I made for him and was also a pretty good footpaperball player. He abandoned me for our neighbour for reasons I do not know even today.

Cats. Ugh. Disloyalty just oozes off of them, even in their gaze. I've never seen a cat look at someone lovingly. It's always shrewd and calculating and selfish...

Doggos on the other hand― unconditional love. You haven't known love until you've been looked at by your dog, istg. It's in their eyes.

Yeah then we had a few pet fish afterwards, but that was my brother's own little thing. They died. Soon. Meh.

20. Favourite flavour of icecream:

I guess anything chocolate.

21. The one place I want to be right now:

Usually, I'd say I'm fine right where I am but at the moment, the whole count your blessings thing isn't my mood. So momentarily, I'd like to be done with my exams and shit please.

22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me:

I honestly can't remember. I guess the meanest thing would be people saying I'm arrogant or egoistical because I don't like...dance and sing and shit like other kids I'm surrounded by. I'm just shy, and my perfectionism and mild anxiety is a curse. But I'm trying to break out of it so...I wish they would stop that.

Ah, and also, I've had certain people call me an ass-kisser. Because I was nice and tolerant to my hostel warden who was an absolute cow. But yeah, I was nice to her face but I complained about her sometimes to my friends, so that makes me fake and a kiss-ass. 😐 Still haven't worked out through that blow, still don't know if they're right or not, but I'm definitely not making that mistake again. This is why you can't trust no one.....and ugh this is giving me bad feels so imma just move on to the next question.

23. Where I have lived before:

Just Kerala and then Banglore for a little while. Yeah.

24. I'll love you if:

You treat me good, treat my fam good and buy me icecream even when I don't ask. (I'm so easy omg)

25. What are my future plans:

To be happy. That's it.

26. An internal conflict I have with myself:

Ah it's a daily struggle: stepping out of my comfort zone, developing my confidence.

I'm also very indecisive. I see pros and cons to almost every situation and because of that, I usually can't pick sides or just choose. And I over think every other thing, so yeah, I'm pretty much always at internal conflict😔😔

27. What I'm doing tomorrow:

Sleep. Nah, jk, probably laze around, study and read. That's it. My life is uninteresting for now.

28. What I want to be when I grow older:

I used to say I wanted to be a doctor. But I realised that was just peer pressure and my own indecisiveness talking for me. Now I'm not sure. I just wanna be happy and helpful and respected. That's it. The rest...will figure itself out.

29. Most embarrassing moment:

Hmm....once I got roasted by a super mean teacher for a very small reason. In front of the whole class. I was maybe 12 and my little heart took it hard. Ah, that was a bad day. Bad week, in fact. It's funny now but back then it was horrible😂

30. Two of my insecurities:

I don't even like opening up like this but Wattpad is the only place after all, so...

Um, not being good enough in every other way. That's...a major insecurity. Fueled by perfectionism, or maybe caused by it, I do not know😔

Two would be something like tiny relapses at times― I used to hate the way I look too, but I've learned to embrace my body and all that jazz. It's...not something you can rush or force. It just happens naturally. So for everyone who's struggling like that, don't worry. Just remember there's no one in the world who's love you need more than your own. Nobody. I still relapse sometimes and think, ugh, why am I like this I need to change this, do that, look like this so I can wear that― but then it's the same me who's like, nah, you're good the way you are. There's always room for improvement, but it's nothing to hate yourself over.

31. What I would do if I won the lottery:

Save some of it, splurge a bit, donate some of it.

32. A description of the boy I like:

Oh....um... 😚 Well, okay. He's tall and gorgeous and hardworking and so good at so many things but still worried about not being good enough, biggest supporter for his friends and that girl, selfless, responsible, smart, compassionate....I could go on. But I guess I relate to him a lot. And that's why I've got this disease😶

33. What I like most about about myself:

I like to think I'm compassionate. And empathetic. That and I'm usually loyal af and super protective over everyone special to me so....yeah. I'm sincere, and that's a trait fading in today's time so yeah😔 I like that about myself thank you.

34. My biggest pet peeves:

Please refer to chapter 16 I think it was.

35. What bands I've seen:

None. Zero. Well, none except this boy band from highschool, that consisted of my seniors. They were pretty good.

BUT OH YES I AM KICKING MYSELF FOR THIS EVEN NOW. BRODHA V SHOWED UP IN MY CITY, IN MY BEST FRIEND'S COLLEGE TO PERFORM, AND I. DIDNT. FUCKING. GO.

BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT HIM THEN.

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I'M KICKING MYSELF RN?! NO. NO YOU DON'T. I HAVE FAILED BRODHA V FANS WHO HAVEN'T YET ATTENDED ONE OF HIS CONCERTS. I AM SO STUPID😭😭😭😭

Seriously tho, he was so nice and charming on stage here, from what tiny clips I've seen. Good man.

36. Who my best friends are:

Been there done that, sorry.

37. How many kids I want in the future:

Two. Not a sperm more, not a sperm less.

38. My idea of a perfect date:

I wouldn't know because I've never been. But I imagine it involves lots of good food and laughter. And Icecream.

39. What I'm really good at:

Hmm...I dunno. Making iced tea? Yeah. And listening to people I guess.

40. Most traumatic experience:

I have one. And goddamn it's traumatizing but I can't talk about it yet because I still haven't gotten over it and it's been years since. So yeah, um, I dunno. One day I'll find the courage. And that day I'll write, so that anyone who reads it going through the same thing will know what to do and how to deal with it. At the moment, I'm not ready to write about it.

But one day.

Besides, anyday in Public transport is traumatizing 😒

Infact, the most traumatizing public transport experience I've had is when I was once coming back home from boarding school, in a super crowded bus. Um side note, this is gonna get uncomfortable so....escape if you wanna.  It was a four hour journey and I was tired, so I sat down as soon as I could. But I got the armrest seat, the first seat. I wanted window so I could sleep. But anyway, I sat down, popped in my earphones and just drifted off for a while. There were men and women all around, standing crowded together. It was kinda suffocating, but I just wanted to get home somehow so I was okay.

Anyway, I wake up thanks to a bad speed braker and I open my eyes....

To find myself eye level with an obvious boner straining some dude's dhoti, or mundu as we call it. Means it was pretty obvious.

I was so fucking scarred I felt my evening tea rise back up in my throat. I dunno if you can understand how horrible it was. And he has a sleazy smile on his face too, staring at some woman standing a little in front of him.

Ugh okay that's making me wanna throw up again.

MOVING ON TO THE NEXT QUESTION.

41. Where I would like to live:

I like where I currently live. Any city that isn't too crowded and hectic. But tbh, I loved Banglore I dunno how❤️

42. The nicest thing anyone has ever said to me:

Oh that's easily all the wonderful comments I've received here on Wattpad saying you actually like my writing, and that you're feeling what I'm trying to convey. And Kim saying I give off positive vibes and something. That made me feel so wanted and worth something,  I can't thank her enough❤️

It's unbelievable to me, and I'm humbled and grateful 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

43. Do I like where I am right now:

I already answered a reverse question. And yeah, I'd like to have my exams done with, that's all.

44. What I can hear right now:

"I let 'em talk this, I let 'em talk that
  I let 'em go on but I never talk back.
  I let 'em go 🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶
  I let 'em go 🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶"

45. My relationship with my sibling(s):

Well, both irl and Wattfam siblings, pretty good. Love-hate, leaning heavily on the love side. They die only when they eat my food or annoy me or call me stuff I'm not.

46. All of the pets I've ever had:

Not doing this again, the first time was hard enough😭😭😭😭

47. My biggest worry currently:

Exams. Not being able to be there for people.

48. Something I've wished for repeatedly:

The love of my life, world peace and please please give this person some brains on a helluva lot of people.

49. My relationship with my parents:

Really good. Healthy. It's not like I tell them every last detail of my life, but they know the important stuff and they're pretty cool and relaxed about most things. Of course, there's always teenage friction and drama but eh. We have a good relationship going. They're good people.

Update: This⬆️is a mistake💀 it's worse than I thought.

50. What words make me the best about myself:

Honestly, nothing comes to mind.

51: Something I should've said a long time ago:

" Hey mom, I think I can't see like you do."

52. What my last text message says:

Bahahahahahahahahahahah

53. What I hate most about myself:

I hate that this question is so easy to answer but the other one where I was asked what I like about myself or something was so hard. Hate my perfectionist brain.

54. Biggest turn ons:

Honestly, with so many repeated questions, this is starting to look like my Model exams.

55. What words upset me the most:

I guess like, when someone swears at me but means it. Like actually means it.

56. What I hate/hated the most about school:

My higher secondary school was terrible. They never encouraged students who scored less, but worshipped the toppers. And to top it off, humiliated the students who don't perform well, instead of trying to help them back up. It was too invasive and strict and gave you practically no privacy.

As someone who cherishes her own freedom above anything else, it was a nightmare.

Yay I'm done. I'd written most of this a few days ago, and the rest of it now, bit I'm too lazy to redo it or whatever. ALSO THE ONLY REASON I'M PUTTING THIS UP RN IS BECAUSE MY FOLKS STILL ARENT HOME AND I CAN'T SLEEP UNTIL THEN. (PLEZ DON'T KILL MEH)

Anyway, tags: AbysmalRose Saiyan_Oliver SoxyPoxy CinderallaMan latejune fahteematu_ Ivaraa IdeallySassy errormessage

Okay all you tagged people, I know it's huge so do it only if you want to, no pressure.

Except Mom, twinzie and Oliver. You guys gotta do it sorry 😔

Okay Wattpad, goodbye. I'll see you two weeks later, got stuff to kill and toss aside.❤️