Quite contrary to my last rant where I was attempting to channel the Durga inside every female, this one is purely nice and soft and fluffy.

And sometimes murderous but...I have good reason😔

The urge to write this has been bugging me for a while now but I've been so busy, I never could find the time. Today, however, I just saw a few things and I decided I need to say this now.

So many things go unsaid and underappreciated. And I'm not that good at telling people how I feel. Infact, I suck at it, but I don't want regret to happen.

Also, say hello to my bitmoji.

So I woke up early today (surprise, I know) to study for this horrible test, and I was mildly stressing out, eating breakfast and my nails while reading all at once, when my little brother, who's taller than my dad atm, walks outta the room having just woken up, stretching like some rubber stick that had been bent to fit through the doorway. And the first thing he does after tossing me a look is come over and gimme a hug and a few pats, "Issok, just a test. Come back home soon."

And honest to God, that was exactly what I needed.

Yes he eats all my food, yes he's annoying AF. Yes he's whiny and bratty and idiotic sometimes but he's also super sweet, responsible when the situation calls for it, and he knows how to diffuse the tension in an instant. And he's always looking out for me. Mom always complains that it's like I'm the only person who matters to him in the house, and who's opinion he values, despite me treating him like absolute garbage sometimes; he takes almost all of the brunt of my bad moods and he retaliates but he still treats me good the next morning and I dunno how to honour that or give back to him. I honestly do not know. He's got a good heart, my brother.

I had my doubts but you're growing up into a really good person, and I'm proud to call you my sibling. Except when you lick my spoon, in which case I want to kill you but no pressure.

Nobody tag him, I'm serious. He ain't using wattpad much anyway so it's alright but nobody tag him or imma find you🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

And then moving from real life to online, I've got another one of these strange species, underground rapping, randomly bursting into songs while killing people, drooling over daffodils and DOGGOS, worrying and nagging and encouraging the fluff outta my spineless ass. It's only been like a very short while, yes, but dang twinzie, you like my real brother already. Fluffing crazy in your own way, and you may not know it because I never said it, but the last few weeks would've been absolute shit if not for you. Ugh I'm never saying this again.

But seriously tho who gave this kid such a huge ass heart and so much talent? Imma send flowers to your mama, Cinderally. Again.

Let's hope I never unleash my anger or frustration on you like I do to irl lil B. I dunno how he manages to not hate me after all that, but....bah I dunno. And I have done nothing to deserve you, but you're here anyway so imma just lock you in a safe box. (Password is *****)

I swear, if I didn't have my brothers, irl and online, I'd be ded meet by now. For real.

And one thing people should probably know about me is that... I'd do anything for family. And if you've made the cut then, that means imma do anything for you. If anyone's got doubts feel free to ask my lil bro. He'll tell you.
Das a joke dun tag him 🔪🔪🔪

*releases deep breath* Phew. Chinks in my armour exposed but that wasn't so bad. Ploughing on:

I'm someone who's constantly stressed and easily discouraged (surprised?yeah) but I've been blessed with the silliest, sweetest people surrounding me. Even if they eat all my food and annoy me sometimes and shit (mom, Muffin, hello) and call me stuff I'm clearly not (I'm looking at you, Lon), they're like a lifetime of Christmas presents and Birthday gifts all in one come early. Imma treasure these shits.

All my friends over here, absolutely amazing people I've met online and feel blessed to have found. I can say it, how lucky I am, but you wouldn't understand. Caz, Emmy, Kim, Sox, Maggie...you guys are the bestest of the bestest of the bestest. I'm so glad I met you😭😁

And not to mention my absolutely crazy crazy CRAZYFAM with my adorable MUFFIN (who can make anyone smile), my momma (who's like a real single mom), La (my sailor mouthed BADASS cutie), Gigi and Kitty, my adorable sister and niece, Lon the amazeballs twinzie, Oliver the Super Saiyan (such a child ay times but always ready to save the day) and Chibi (my murderous other wittle niece). You guys spamming and talking and giggling and being whacky gives me life. I feel like I need to shout it to the skies.

My lil brother, my twinzie, my friends and my fam― I love you. You dumbbutts don't even know how much. I may not say it all the time, but...

I apreeseate you. And I've got your back (and front, I can teleport). Always.

Big whoop for the HP (HARRY POTTER) reference in the end yaaaaaay.

Okay Imma just....go crawl into a hole...and stay there for hmmmmmmm FOREVA AND EVA BYE