It really is. It holds me back so much. Same as age. I just can't. My thumb got hurt at the time I was needed. I want to sleep on this but my fucking thumb won't let me. Why is this shit happening all this time. This is bull shit. I hate being helpless when it comes to my friends. My friends are like my family. I just, no I couldn't do anything for them. I just can't ever do anything that needs to be done. My trainer says, " Prevent don't repair." I can't help and I can't prevent. I can't repair. I just can't do anything about anything. I am a fucked Up mistake. That's all I can do. Is make mistakes.

GN, I can't take it. See you in the morning.