This doesn't matter to anyone on this site besides me so ignore me.

I'm currently a junior in high school on winter break and life has definitely not been kind to me this year; 2018 has been by far the worst year of my life. I have never been more stressed, with SAT's in the spring; I have never been more anxiety ridden, with every little thing making me doubt myself; I have never been more depressed, with 2 deaths, and old family friend apparently having cancer, and my anxiety playing into my fears. (Psa, I am not clinically diagnosed with any mental disorders, as I am your afraid to tell any adults).

I have also recently discovered I am pansexual and have come out to everyone but my family out of pure fear even though I know they won't care.

And I have a crush (maybe, still undecided) on a friend of mine, which is not cool and for some reason a pattern in this particular circle of friends.

And on top of all that, I can't get a freaking job. Literally can't work anywhere because I'm 16 and have no work experience or skills. I'm going to be broke after college and have to live with 10 people just to pay rent.

Anyway, life sucks, I'm still breathing, let's get this bread, goodnight.