So, as of lately, I have been dealing with a lot of shit. I had a friend go mental and cut off everybody, and it really hurt because all I ever did was try to help him and make him feel better. Now, he's just dedicating all his time to making friends with people who don't care for him in the slightest. They're all fake friends and they're all going to destroy him in the end. But hey, his problem. Not mine.

And, in result of this and some other issues in my shop class, I've been a generally angry person lately. I've been speaking up against people, and I told the guy off over text message. In fact, here it is if you are interested.

"I'm done after this, don't worry too much. I've come to terms with the fact that you don't want to talk anymore, and I will respect your decision. I wish you the best of luck. I especially hope you'll get lucky the day you tire of the masks others wear. Because only the luckiest will find someone real to fall back upon when their world falls apart. And I hope you will have that when the time comes. I know what it can be like to not have that safety net, and I hope that won't happen to you. So, once more, best of luck with your future endeavors. And, one more thing before I go, I'm not the only one who doesn't have the patience for this anymore. A friend wanted me to pass that on."

But I've kinda come to believe that this behavior is me being petty and micro-managing everything. It's what I've always been told whenever I stand up for myself and speak out. But A, a really close friend of mine, she brought up a good point to me.

I'm defending myself.

Even if my anger may seem odd, and my behavior is all over the place, I'm standing up for myself. I'm speaking out against those doing wrong. I'm getting better. And, honestly, I don't think I'll ever be able to explain to her enough exactly how important it is that she told me this. For the most part, I will trust her judgement when I cannot make my own. So just by her saying this is a good thing, it made it into a good thing. It made what I was doing all that more important. And so, I will be strong. I will keep doing as I am.

I will be strong.

I will get better.