This is gonna kinda be my Rant Book version of my Thank You I wrote. So, here it goes!

She swung her legs, the pounding in her head blurring the outside voices and amplifying her own thoughts. "I'm wasting money and meds. I'm wasteing everyone's time. I'm really wasteful, aren't I?"
"Heart... Headaches... Listen... Important." She tuned back into the doctor as she heard the words listen and important. "Don't take more than I tell you to. Too many can cause your heart to stop." The doctor informed.
"Wouldn't that be a blessing. The pain in your heart and head would stop. You could feel hollow, feel free." She nodded, saying she wouldn't do that. But her head had other plans. "We could get away with it. Who would care anyway? Who would care?"
"Vic." A tinier, quieter voice spoke. "And Danie. And Rosie. And Em. And Megan. And Lucy. And Moose. And Every one of your Cheeses. What would they be without you?" The voice spoke, growing louder as the words ever on.
"They'd get over me. They wouldn't miss me."
"No, they wouldn't miss you because they'd join you. Vic and Danie both swore to never kill themselves unless you did. And then Rosie would collapse. And Em would break and become worse. And Megan would fall with her. And Lucy would try to fix Rosie and just break herself. And Moose-"
"I get it! I get it. I just want to feel free. I felt like I could be selfish enough to do that. Let alone leaving Elma, I couldn't do that to her. She can't live an hour without me. I guess- I guess I'll just hold back the urge."
"We really need you to see a therapist about those nightmare things. You've been out of it since the doctor told you you'd be taking more medication."
"I hate relying on drugs." She said to her head and the voices calmed down.
"Trust me, it'll be worth it." Her voice of reason spoke. And no matter how much she tried to pay back those girls who gave her that sense of reason, she never felt like it was enough. Like she still owed them. She truly did. They kept her breathing. They were her tourniquet. And she completely believed her mind that it'd be worth it, as long as she got to keep the girls at her side.
So, here's who I'd like to thank. My special cheeses:
AwkwardPanda250 for being a panda. Cuddly and kind or vicious and protective. I owe you a lot when it comes to the people I've met, so thanks. I'll love you a long time <3 🐼
EnderInfinityYT for just being awesome and a kind face to talk to. WUB U DANIE <3 💁🏼
RoyalCloudPotato for being a Potato. XD. Nah m8 seriously. You were my first friend here on wattpad and back then I worshipped you and it made me so happy. That's probably the main reason I got to where I am today. Thank you Emily <3 🍟(I'd say I love you but I don't want Meg to get jealous #Megily )
MadiRosieFF for being Rosie. Like holy shit girl, you've done loads. From dealing with my whiny (it came up as Whitney XD nah m8 nah) ass to saving my sorry ass from devastation to just being there to banter. You're my time zone buddy, and your sleep schedule is almost as fucked up as mine is XD. Thanks a ton Rosie, I love u <3 🌹
MegaPhone1 for being my little sis. I know we just got over our past shit, but you're still my little sister. It's very common for siblings to hate each other so it works XD. Anyway, you've also dealt with a ton of my shit and I've dealt with a ton of yours. Eye for an eye m8? Lol, jk. Thanks a lot Meg <3🐑 (once again, can't have Em being jealous so you don't get an I love you #MegilytooOP )
minecraft_geek13 for being awesome. You were always awesome, HOPEfully soon we'll drag you back into the group chat with us. Until then, stay awesome Lucy. I'm still loving that profile pic! I love ya gurl <3 👌🏻
Parislily147 for being a Moose XD. Seriously tho, it's been awhile! I miss bantering with you, it really picked up my spirits. Sorry that I was all awkward when we first met. I'm always like that. That and you threatened to show me a deer head XD. Oh gosh, I miss old times. I still love yah tho, thanks Moose <3 🐂 (there was no better emoji, sorry!)
And Lastly, all my cheeses. You guys light up my world (HOLY SHIT GO AWAY 1D SONG! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE TO TALJ THANKS K BAI) and I can't thank you all enough. The views and votes counts are huge! 32 is my highest, 32 Votes!!! I love you all so much, you have no idea. I'd break if any one of you died, don't doubt it. I'd notice if you were gone. I watch for every name I can remember. I have a bad memory tho so forgive me! I want you all to know you're beautiful inside, no matter what. And that looks shouldn't matter. I don't care if you think you look like total shit, you look beautiful to me because I can only see your soul. And I favor mine black ;)
XD lol omfg I just said that. Oh mi gawd. XD I'm done. I'm ded bois. I love you all, never forget me! *goes to hell and logs into wifi* I'm back! We're all good! I love you all from heaven to hell and all the way back to earth. Idk why I chose that analogy but whatever. I love you all, thank you forever. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<<3<3❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜💜💜💛💛💛💛💛💚💚💚💚💚💙💙💙💙💙💘
I'm good now XD. I LOVE YOU ALL SOSOSOSO MUCH!!!
Until next time, Peace my cheeses!