The pounding music
Screaming voices
Swaying bodies
Too much skin
And yet
No matter my struggles
My thoughts are the loudest
You don't deserve to eat
They forgot you for a reason
Do your friends really want you here
Why would they want someone so
Fat
Ugly
Quiet
Useless
Pointless
Introverted
You're a bad friend
Fucking disgusting
You don't even deserve to hurt
You should starve
You do no good
Listen to all that noise
You couldn't be like that
Not even if you tried
Depressed freak
You're a disgrace to even that word
You can't be depressed
There's nothing wrong with you
Your life is great
Get over yourself
Ignore those thoughts
And just suffer alone
Don't reach out
Don't dare ask for help
No one would help you
It'd be a waste of their
Time
Breath
Resources
Wasteful little bitch
Go die already
But don't really
You couldn't hurt others
You couldn't hurt yourself
Pathetic suicidal
Pathetic depressed
Don't even deserve the words
You should just be a shadow
That's right
Sit alone
Suffer
Stay
Alone
Until
Your
Death
...
...
...
But here come the others
Once again
Smiling faces
Gleaming eyes
Don't you dare ruin that
Force that smile
Act happy
Be glad
Keep going
Until you can convince yourself
You're not depressed
You're not suicidal
You're not sick
You're just crazy.