WHY HELLO THERE MY CHEESES HOW HAS YOUR DAY/WEEK/MONTH BEEN GOING? Idfk how long it's been since I've last posted in here. Oh, and I'm doing fan-FUCKING- horrible. I'm doing absolutely horrible. I just haven't really gotten any time recently to talk about it so:

HERE I AM

Let us first begin with the technicalities. I have been officially diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder, ADD, and moderate Depression. Since beginning therapy probably about 8 months ago my anxiety has dropped by one point (though still severe) and my depression has raised by three points. I think my depression is actually like 2-3 points away from becoming classified as severe tbh. But, that's just on the therapy charts. I also sugar-coat my depression a bit at therapy because I don't want my parents to find out about it. Let's just say I've hinted at it before and their attempt to help only made it worse. But, yeah.

On another note, I have not hurt myself for like a month, which is good. And the last time I did hurt myself it was only one scratch, rather than the usual 3 inch by 3 inch square of scratches. So that's good. I still haven't been sleeping, which is not fun. My anxiety has become even easier to trigger, which is just joyous. Please not the sarcasm.

Oh, idk if I ever told you cheeses but A knows about my depression and my tendency to hurt myself. I wouldn't quite call it self-harm, simply a destructive form of self-punishment. But yeah, I told her around March or April? And she was really supportive and she's been watching after me. Which is really nice, actually.

Sorry, had to click off and check that the one irl person I had on here can't see this anymore. She's officially un-following me, which is a big relief. Means I can actually post this.

Side note: this is part 69 ;))))))))

Another Side note: So an irl friend sent "Im shook and suicidal" in our group chat and my automatic response would be "aren't we all?" But then I remembered most my irl friends don't even know I'm depressed. So I just sat here for a few moments yelling "DELETE DELETE DELETE" in my head before closing down the chat. And I felt the need to share.

Main point again: um, what was it? Oh yeah.

I'm doing better than I have been in the past. I'm staying healthy, drinking some more water. Recently got my driver's license (it's probationary but still good). I got high honor roll last year for the whole year. I got 4's on my AP tests (scaled 1-5, 3 is passing. It's hard tests too so yay). I get back my SAT scores tomorrow (high key nervous af). Um, I don't know what else. Just kinda wanted to catch you all up.

UPDATE: I GOT 1380 ON MY SATs WHICH IS GOOD

OH

ANOTHER THING

DaEevee I AM SO SORRY YOUR POOFLESS REQUEST IS NOT DONE YET. IT IS CURRENTLY SITTING IN MY WORKS WITH ABOUT 400 WORDS. ITS HORRID SO FAR THOUGH SO I GOTTA REWRITE IT. I WILL WORK ON IT ASAP, MY HOME LIFE HAS JUST BEEN A LIL BUSY AND STRESSFUL RECENTLY.

NEXT TOPIC.

I AM CURRENTLY WORKING ON A SECRET PROJECT THAT'L TAKE VERY LONG. HOWEVER, IF YOU WISH, I SHOULD HAVE ENOUGH PREWRITTEN FOR IT TO START POSTING IT SOON. WOULD YOU LIKE THAT OR NO?

Caps lock is gone now, sorry about that XD. I think I'm good now.

I hope you enjoyed reading, and I hope you cared at least the slightest bit about any of this. Until next time, Peace my Cheeses! I love you all <3

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