Hay. I figured I should tell you guys I'm not dead! Although I'm sure most of you have given up on me..........
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I'm trying okay?! I'm really really trying! I'm trying to be skinnier! I'm trying to be a better friend! I'm trying to be on more! I'm trying to update! I promise I'm trying! Please- please don't mock me about any of it. I'm so so sorry. I had a fucking panic attack earlier over this. I can't keep doing this to myself. I can't keep forcing myself into these stressful situations. I want to write, I really really do. But I have way too much homework, and too much cleaning, and too much life and stress to deal with. I am withstanding so much pain from those in my real life that I don't need any more from my online "friends". You're supposed to be my friends! You're supposed to support me, and help me! Not mock me because of something I can't fucking control! I'm sick and tired of it! I had to leave my group chat because of it. I made a joke about someone finally being on and automatically someone had to say "you're one to talk". IM SORRY OKAY?! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED?! CAUSE HERE IT IS!!!!

Just ignore me. My world's crumbling around me and my only safety is seemingly filling with acid. And although if you ask I'll say I'm okay, I'm really not okay.

I'm just a really good actress.