So I'm not going into to much detail but you have probably heard me mention a disorder of some sort yeah I'm gonna explain that since my rants are definitely gonna involve this a lot

So basically i have a disease called complex one deficiency one you can search it up if you want but your not gonna find my case i have a milder case thank god! Or i don't think I'd make it this far

Now the disorder settles in muscles and organs i think i was lucky to get it in my muscles so at least i hope it won't spread to something like my heart or my intestines

Now this is a genetic disorder causing lesions like blocks in the nerves i have two one on my brain (or brain stem i forget) which is so far affecting my left hand and eyes my eyes are the least affected by this disorder my left arm is well a jackass it is hard to move my hand and my arm and if i do to much my muscle tenses up which hurts after a while

The second one is on my spinal cord which is affecting my pegs and its not good i have horrible balance causing me to fall over a lot like A LOT it also hurts sometimes at night i always have tylenol to calm it down but at school? I don't and sometimes it hurts so much that i start crying and my teachers and classmate's can't do anything

So i have had two hospital overnight stays one at 5 at the end if kindergarten which lasted a week i spent my sixth birthday in the hospital which was very very sad i was a six year old!

The second one was in grade one right after christmas for my eyes this one lasted two weeks and that's when i finally got a diagnosis it took about six months but we got it

Now when my left arm happened i think i was about nine? I didn't stay overnight since this time doctors knew what it was that was sort of t he point where i realized this can spread

I have a small fear its gonna spread to my organs or an important muscle and I'm gonna either die or be kept in hospital that is the absolute LAST thing i want to worry my friends so much my one guy friend actually prayed for me and my neighbor friend prays for me all the time i couldn't be more thankful for them not to mention them and my gal friend sees me for who i am not my disorder

So that's sorta what i mean and am talking about when i say disorder and what i am gonna rant about a lot since people treat me differently because of it

So look out for those if you made it this far i am impressed and thanks!

I'll see you later and remember its a bad day not a bad life