Acknowledgments:
Credit: Thanks to my friend for beta-editing and reading. I appreciate it.

I have a severe headache. Honestly, it felt like hell, to be honest. It moves at a different speed; every time I have a headache it changes my personality. I was taking these pills to moderate my ADHD. However, after a year of taking these meds for the past few weeks; I have been feeling very grumpy, fatigued, and out of my element. It has been that way since I found out that we have a guest staying over.; I privately did not take the news well. Yeah, I understand we have guests to help through tough times but I felt honestly uncomfortable and felt my privacy was being invaded. I honestly just want them to leave. I'm not used to guests staying long. They were on my mom's side but they felt like strangers. Due to side effects, I had awkward and embarrassing interactions which I had to apologize and explain I was on medication for my ADHD. Then I realized that the same medication I was on has put me in an awkward situation. I had weird side effects such as headaches, fatigue, and grumpiness. It made sense I was on medication that didn't work. So hopefully I can change my current meds so that I stop taking them in fear of more mishaps. I also took Aleve for headaches and pain headaches relief. The relief worked so far.

About guests? I realize I'm not going to like them anytime soon because of the trauma response of my Complex PTSD; I'm reacting to resentment. It feels like they took everything and I have not warmed up to them anytime soon. I talked to my therapist about it and it feels like they ruined my life.That's okay; my feeling is valid. I just wish I had my life back, my own peace and serenity. The feeling is neutral. I'm still avoiding them. So yeah.

Right now I'm okay. I'm trying the best I can. I usually don't update or write anymore since I lost passion and I discovered a writing hiatus for over three years now. So now it feels like I'm in a neutral place right. I'm taking time to write again. Because every time I write it leads to burnout since I'm focusing on my private life. But thank you for the love and support. See you soon. You are all valid!

End of a chapter closing.