I'm not a forgiving person I admit. Having chronic PSTD or chronic CPSTD makes me very resentful and craves revenge and anger all the time I can't control my temper along with anger outbursts because of it. The reason why I'm in therapy is to manage stress So don't take it personally if we both apologize and we both were in the wrong. I will apologize because I'm a naturally good person; I just tired of being hurt over several damn times I can't count. I developed several trauma responses.
So now on if I do forgive you, it will take several weeks if I can trust you again. 💜
I journal if it becomes a problem if I lash out again or talk to my therapist.