28th December 2018, around 4 am

I haven't slept yet
But that's not the reason I'm here.
I'm here to talk about friends
And how mines don't like me.
I know I sound like an attention whore by saying that but I can't help it.

Online friends:
Everytime I talk to my online friends, they either change the subject or straight up ignore me and the only time the notice me is when im still awake at 5 am or when I point out I don't feel like I get enough attention.
But even then they only feel sympathetic and move on, claiming to 'love me' (platonically,they're only my friends.  I have a girlfriend)
I feel like I act annoying and it hurts but of course I won't point it out because I'm a coward
I just needed to say that.
Sorry for bothering you,
bye