I don't know what to say or how to feel about this and about you right now. I trusted you and you did what you wanted. You say your fine over text but I know you're lying.. Words have no meaning,expression,or tone over text. I tired to give you advice and to be there for you but you did it anyway. And I blame myself for it tbh.. I know I disappoint you in how I act or the way I am but I didn't mean to hurt you or make you do something you shouldn't have.. And the fact that you can tell me not to do something but you go do it to someone else, makes me feel shit. I wanna cry but I can't find tears, I wanna be upset but I can't be, I wanna be angry and yell but I can't... I'm passed all those emotions to where I'm clam and emotionless.. I always try my fucking hardest and it's never enough..