I need to get my shit together. Because I've been treating myself like complete and utter garbage/shit. I've been depressed for a while now and I need to stop and think. Lately has been pretty rough.. I lost another friend, my family had been fighting, and I've just been overthinking plus been putting myself down. But after talking to one of my really close and good friends.. I've decided that I need to move on and treat myself better. Without my friend.. I don't know where I'd be right now.... hell I might be dead. But because of her, I'm here and I'm moving on. No amount of words can explain how much i care and am grateful of her. She is like my sister, I honestly considered her my sister. She's the fucking best in the world; I love her to pieces. So I'm going to move on.. will it be easy? Fuck no. But I'll get through it. If you going through a really shitty time, know that I'm here for you and I care about you. I know I won't be able to make it stop or tell you that it will immediately be okay. Because it won't be. It will take time and effort but I will help you through it... if you want. Thank you to everyone who cares and loves me. I appreciate you so much, no amount of words can express my gratitude for you being here. Thank you <3