If I were to express what I'm feeling right now with a song, it would be this one

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Just by living I'm hurting them another day
Hundreds cry all I do is ruin everything
Nobody wanted me, no one there to need
If only I could live in the kind of world I dreamed
Just by leaving I'm helping y̶o̶u̶ them another day
Hundreds smile all they do is laugh at everything
Nobody there to scream no one being mean but see
Things like that would never happen  for me-

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In the end the person they made in me breaking and BREAKING and never pick up