Like the time I had to talk my then partner out of suicide...

Wrote paragraphs upon paragraphs telling them they had so much to live for

How they need to stay strong If not for themselves then for me

It went on for hours with me texting as if their life was on the line and I felt like it was

Until they told me thank you

And even today they tell me I saved them

It goes on with other people I've met..

While I'm extremely happy and proud of those I've helped, it seriously took a toll on my mental state and ever since things have been shit

I'm no longer the happy girl I was before Wattpad,
I'm no longer carefree, without a worry in the world

Now I'm scared

Scared they'll say they'd attempt again

Scared that..I've thought about it because of stress and feeling like any little mistake will make the world end

But I wouldn't change that

As long as they're happy, alive, and breathing then that's all I could ever ask for

"With tears in my eyes,
I begged you to stay.
You said;
Hey man I love you,
But no fucking way"