I really need to learn control..
Someone was spamming the chat and I got annoyed so I told them to stop, all be it sounding hostile.
I was stressed out working and there's a whole exam coming up and I needed to do a PowerPoint all while being in a call with someone so I was pissed easily
They get upset with and then they sent their sister to talk to me
Someone who's older than me telling to watch how I act or else they're gonna deal with me themselves
Me still being in a mood kinda just went "k" which lead to them lashing out at me..
And here I am..
Hours later..
Regretting everything, hating myself, wanting to jump off a bridge and slam my head into the ground causing me to not die on impact but leave me so I'm in crippling pain and agony as I'm left to rot die slowly wanting to erase myself from the world so I can stop hurting people
I've hurt to many people and I need to be hurt. I don't deserve self pity. I don't deserve to feel bad for myself. Because in the end why does it matter.
I've ruined something
Everything I love I ruin..I can't have anything