I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore

I feel so empty

So dull

So lonely ...

But that's just how things are ig

Why bother having friends when ultimately you'll be left behind and struggling to catch up

Why have friends if all they're going to do is brag that they have everything they need to be happy

Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough..

I'm starting to loose my masks of putting on a smile for everyone I meet

I've started forgetting who I used to be to make people think I'm happy

I'm loosing it

I'm loosing connection to reality and feelings