TW Mentions of suicide

I here's the thing

I know I say that I want to off my self

A lot and I do sometimes feel like that's my only option but I always snap out of it

Because I know that I'm the oldest of three kids
I have responsibilities and I'm a role model to my younger sisters

I know that if I do off myself that will leave my sisters with serious trauma and depression because I'm their older sister I see them everyday I teach them stuff you know

I don't want to teach them that suicide is the answer so I'm kinda just staying alive for them because I don't want to hurt them mentally or emotionally

So you know, hopefully this mind set I have will pass and I'll be back to my non depressive self again