Ever had a moment where you seriously regretted something you said?

Especially if it was said outta frustration and someone you love overheard it?

No?

Then you're damn lucky cause the guilt that eats away at your very core is enough to kill you.

Seriously...I'm like THE worst girlfriend EVER. I don't know how the fuck Jaylan keeps putting up with my shit. Like I was ready to dump my own dumbass on New Years Eve cause I was tired of my own shit but yet he's still here with me.

I don't get it but I guess I should count myself lucky as hell that I have such an amazing boyfriend. Anyone else woulda been long gone by now...of that I'm 100% positive.

I know I really hurt him tonight tho and now I feel like the biggest piece of shit to walk this planet. Yes I apologized but I don't think it's enough...especially since when I said I feel like shit for saying it I was told "good cause you should".

Fuck.

Look at me starting the new year off fucking things up as usual. It is what I do best.