I write this with the right eye open and the left eye closed. The closed one is currently "Numb" and sore, so excuse me for any misspellings.

I have a new phobia! SURGERY

Get. That. Shit. Away. From. Me.

I am gonna have to be pulled by a tornado if I'm getting anywhere close to a damn hospital ever again. Here's a good summary of what happened....

1) I get seated in a weird room with a weird chair, mom starts holding my hands for support

2) My breathing starts to get out of control and I hyperventilate, I also started shaking and crying a bit

3) They (Doctor, Pregnant Woman-Doctor, Indian Lady-Doctor, Occasionally There) stuck needles into my glands (Imagine getting flu shots on your eyes, five+ times in a row)

4) They flipped my eyelids to start removing whatever was in my glands (hella uncomfortable)

5) My mom goes to sit down, leaving me even more nervous since I wasn't holding her hand. She passed out.

6) My breathing got worse and they had to stop the process, now my eyes are sore.

Also, acoording to mum, they cut my glands open. Yeahhhhhhhh fuck nope-

Keep in mind I was wearing PJs the entire time, I still am XD

Best part? They told me I had to diet and lower my stress so that my glands don't go crazy again. Great. They told me I was fat AND that I have issues, simultaneously.

I am not returning to any damn doctor any time soon. I told them to inject the sleeping thing so they could do the project undisturded, but they said I was too old for that. Bruh. You're doing surgery on my eyes. Do you think any frigging person is gonna get over that any time soon? I presumed they knew what they were talking about, since they should know my age, but for damns sake I think they didn't. I look "2-6 years older" than I am, and I guess they didn't catch the drift that I am just one very worried kiddo that wants to get this over with as soon as possible without pain. But no, they went with sticking needles into my eyes with me concious.

Fuck life.

;-;

Also now I have to put gel in my eyes so that I don't get an infection and go blind. UGHHHHHHHHHH

My eye is blurry.