Don't you just love how when you argue with your cousin, and your cousin calls you a nuisance and your grandmother tells you to stop? And they can't sense your depression in you although you show no emotion most of the time, don't want to go outside, don't feel like eating, but people force you to, don't want to be around people, want to be on the internet most of the time, don't feel like you belong, and sometimes cry over it and when people ask you if you're okay, you try to be happy and peppy and say yes because they think they'll be live you,the fact that one of your old friends call you something you don't like, or the fact that almost everyone brings down your confidence and pride down? That's the situation that I'm going through. And I don't like how people say that they can help. Do get know what I'm going through? No. Do they know how I feel 24/7? No. It's just too much for me. No, I'm not thinking about committing suicide. I just, am falling into depression. That's all, so you will still see me still updating. This is just a life update for me.

Just, I feel like I'm on the smallest lifeboat(first video) and that I might fall of if something's wrong with me. I try to fix my real image, but I'm just so insecure about myself. I feel like I want to stop eating all together and that's what a girl was telling me to do. Many tbigs has happened in my 12 years of my life but some people on here (you know who you are) get me through some of my depression. I feel like I'm sinking into a sea of depression and I feel like Heather McNamara.