I thought I was over Ella.

I thought I proved to myself that I no longer reminisce in the past.

But, that's not very easy, I guess.

I thought I was over Rixta.

I started to form a crush on her soon after my break up with Ella, but only after I began to get to know her and, at least in my mind, start a friendship with her.

I admired Rixta.

Often as I did Ella.

I started to feel low and incompetent from subsided thoughts and emotions,

Beginning to stutter, feel queasy, and almost scared whenever I was around Rixta.

Everything I did I second guessed, I nit picked at the memory of the action and pulled out apart into a mangled mess of regret and questioning.

Like maybe if I hadn't done that, it would all be easier.

If I had done that, it would all be better.

When I did that, did that really help?

Am I asking these questions?

Or just typing them for dramatic affect?

Do I still have emotional connection to a destroyed relationship and a faltering friend??

Is she even my friend?!

I think!!

She says hello!

When I get caught looking at her and don't have a chance to look away till she does and I realize I should too!

What???

Exactly!!

I got distracted by Markiplier.

I hate my personality.

My new, improved, and beautiful alter egos aren't helping.

Sporadic Glitch, Intelligent Patch,

Shadow..?

SUCH WOW.

SUCH ORIGINAL.

WHAT IS THIS???

I WANTED TO GRADUATE WITHOUT MORE DRAMA

AND MY EX BOYFRIEND GOES AND ASKS IF I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM!

LIKE

A MONTH HALF AGO OR SOMETHING

BECAUSE HE THINKS I SECRETELY HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM

WHEN I DUMPED HIM BECAUSE I DIDN'T

I HAD THEM FOR ELLA

AND RIXTA

AND I'M SO CONFUSED

AND I'M NOT STRAIGHT, ARRON, YOU FUCK TARD

THAT'S QUITE OBVIOUS

DO YOU WANT ME TO GET IN TROUBLE FOR A LESBOW SWEATER?????

I KNOW DEZERAY LIKES TO BLOW RASPBERRIES ON MY TIT THROUGH MY SHIRT AS I FLIP SHIT ON HER

BUT THAT IS FRIENDLY AS IT ALWAYS HAS

I'M ACTUALLY LESBIAN, BRO.

FLANNELS, HOODIES, TANK TOPS, HATS, TOM BOY ATTITUDE, DOMINANT, SCARED OF MEN, CORRUPTED THOUGHTS!

ALL THE GLORY

THIS IS MY STORY

A TURBULENT SEA.

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING GINGER IDIOT.

I'M NOT ON DRUGS.

I TOOK ADDERALL THIS MORNING FOR MY ADHD!!

I MIGHT HAVE BEEN HIGH YESTERDAY YOU CAN'T PROVE ANYTHING I PLEAD NOT GUILTY

THAT'S NOT ACTUALLY IMPORTANT LUCKILY

WHAT IS

IS

UH

I FORGOT

WAIT

NOPE

FUCK

I REMEMBER.

CONFLICTING EMOTIONS.

AND I..

JUST..

WANT......

Peace.....

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dramatic pause...

dramatic italics..

peace of pie..

piece among these lies..

i should be emo and write songs...

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