I've been having really vivid dreams lately, as in they feel like I'm actually awake. They are so real that I have caught myself a couple of times about to bring up a topic or even that was in my dream with my grandma, but had quuickly stopped because I remembered that only happened in my dream. Or, at one point, I had dreamt about what I usually do with my grandma in the morning, talk to her while she makes me breakfast, pace around, whatever. I remember that I had gotten up from the chair I usually sat in and went to the fridge, got a jug of apple cider and got a cup, microwaved it, even put a cinnamon stick in it, then put the jug away. The next morning, the real morning, I found myself looking in the fridge for the apple cider. And it wasn't there. These dreams that I have been having are so damn realistic that they seem like they're straight out of a book, or movie, and are prophecies or omens sent to me by some god or goddess, a divine being or even a princess in trouble. But when I was thinking about this, I had an epiphany, right there on the toilet seat, my hand frozen halfway to wiping myself (tmi lol). These dreams... prophecies... are telling me that my future... Is going to consist of everything that I do everyday. So, in short, I'm going to get absolutely no where in life. 

I told Hailey and Dezeray about it, but in a shorter version. 

Hailey: //in response to what I messaged her (that paragraph)// Only if you give up

Me: ... That's when you're supposed to ask: :On a scale from ground to clouds, how many f*cking books have you written or read dude you sound like Shakespeare but depressing and stupid"(then I sent a laughing emoji)

Hailey: (sent 2 laughing emojis, laughing so hard that they are crying)

Me: I'm seriously laughing at this XD

Dezeray: //in response to what I messaged HER// That's sad

Me: I thought it was funny. 

But that's how I cover up the pain

I thought that was funny too

To the point where my seeds feel like they're literally splitting from all of my laughter (I sent a laughing nervously emoji)