Look, so a few of the people online I thought I was close to left Wattpad, and they listed their friends on their conversation page, and then I'm just not there... I feel selfish, but I thought I was friends with these people, and then they just act like I don't exist! I've cried over this bullshit, and I need to get this off of my chest, because I'm already falling out of the things I've grown attached to due to stress and feeling like I have to write it, and now people I feel like care about me, just ignore my existence. this is one of the few reasons I may be s**cidal, and I want to fucking commit, the people I put my heart and soul into ignore me! There's almost no one here I talk to anymore, and my lovers never respond, my IRL friends almost completely ignore me when I'm clearly upset. I just, feel like if I died, no one would notice, or even fucking care. I can just disappear and only one person would notice. 

I'm sorry for rambling, I needed to get this off of my chest. I just feel so damn tired that people ignore me, or just act like I don't fucking exist. I got my hopes up the other day because I thought someone I used to know really well had tried to speak to me. She wasn't... I've known the girl since SECOND FUCKING GRADE and we drifted apart.

I'd just like to say a thank you to Nyx, City, BFG, and Waterbottle for being there, as well as Oreo and LeCringeMan... You've been my IRL friends for awhile, and have always been there for me, I wish I could say the same. o7.

This is not a s**cide note. This is just me venting.