Your smiles provoke this feeling of pain.
I know I am wrong I shouldn't feel this way.
Though still in my heart my happiness slain.
I hate who I am I hate how I feel.
I'm not really a fan of this whole deal.
I'm angry and sad
I just want to scream.
Feels like I'm just mad.
Happiness a faroff dream.
Where is the hope?
How can I cope?
I hate what I do.
Should I just give up on myself too?